Hi Pamrla. Congratulations on seeing your son! I am happy for you and hope you can see him more often! I didn't quite understand the rest of your post so I read some of your others and I am so sorry for all the hardships you have had to deal with. I believe we are here for a reason and maybe you have not yet fulfilled that reason. Maybe that reason is your son?... I wish you to physically, mentally and emotionally feel well and find peace within yourself.