Am I too paranoid?

[aLittleOdd]

hey there, I'm 15 and just finishing my final exams until college, i'm just basically doing this to get what i feel out. Which is probably a stupid reason.

I suffer from axiety in many different things, especially in school things such as wrting on the board or answering a question i have been asked, walking into class late, and lately even walking into exams all scares me and thats just at school, i know it's common to be nervous on the first day of college but it makes me feel sick just thinking of having to introduce myself

i like to avoid things where i'll be the centre of attention, i dont have as much of a problem when i'm with my friends but when i'm on my own i'm worried about walking down the street because i feel people will think i walk oddly or something stupid
I'm also bad on buses to places i don't go often, on my own, i feel like i'll miss my stop and constantly checking that i'm on the right bus, so i dont get off at the wrong stop and feel stupid, even though no one else would know that i did.

I do think that i am quite self concious, low self esteem and self confidence, may this have been stemmed from bullying?

And is it as bad as i see it?

i dont know if ive fully explained everything to an understandable level but i reckon i should stop rambling..

thanks to anyone who cares to read this

Lil-L x

 

[CPA23]

I can totally relate odd. Trust me, you are not alone. I also am very paranoid over the simplest of things. I also suffer from low self-esteem and low self-confidence even though people compliment me often. I just don't feel that I deserve these compliments. I think it all stems from childhood when I was picked on for being real small, having big ears and being nerdy. Even though I have grown up and matured these issues continue to haunt me even though I would like for them to stay in the past. I have to keep telling myself that I am not that little boy anyone more and I am now a young adult.

It's funny how things that happened years ago can have such an effect on someone like myself. I just have to deal with the anxiety and paranoia and try to live a productive life.