enchantress24
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hello everyone. i found this site while searching for articles related to social anxiety and depression. i've suffered from clinical depression for about 8 years now and it has really made my life miserable. i've basically felt imcompetent at everything i've ever done, including the most simple tasks.
I decided to go to school to become an emergency medical technician and maybe in the future become a paramedic. i thought that maybe getting a job helping people would make my life more meaningful. I loved my class and I did so well. i even finished with honors. i bragged to my family and friends of how happy i was about getting into this field. well..i started my ride alongs today and honestly it was the worst thing ever. just seeing so many sick people made me feel extremely sad even disgusted. i had never been inside a dialysis center and it was the most scariest, creepiest place i've ever been inside of. i get chills just thinking about it. i don't think i will be able to handle this job.
at this point, im thinking of quitting school. at the same time, i feel my friends and family will see me as a a failure. i will see myself as a failure because i've honestly havent succeeded in anything in my life..how do you know when your doing what you're meant to do?
anyways, im just ranting. i got no one to talk to about this. im too ashamed
I decided to go to school to become an emergency medical technician and maybe in the future become a paramedic. i thought that maybe getting a job helping people would make my life more meaningful. I loved my class and I did so well. i even finished with honors. i bragged to my family and friends of how happy i was about getting into this field. well..i started my ride alongs today and honestly it was the worst thing ever. just seeing so many sick people made me feel extremely sad even disgusted. i had never been inside a dialysis center and it was the most scariest, creepiest place i've ever been inside of. i get chills just thinking about it. i don't think i will be able to handle this job.
at this point, im thinking of quitting school. at the same time, i feel my friends and family will see me as a a failure. i will see myself as a failure because i've honestly havent succeeded in anything in my life..how do you know when your doing what you're meant to do?
anyways, im just ranting. i got no one to talk to about this. im too ashamed
