i drink like 1's in 2 months...max of two shorts...& i really cant sleep when i drink..... my brains inside my head will be shaking... i literally feel like i am gona dye......... why is that to me ??
Recently, I have been finding myself not wanting to socialize with people anymore in fear of rejection, or being disappointed by the outcome of the interaction, and I have been just depressed to the point where I drink sake for several hours straight, attempting to forget about the pain of knowing that I will never be able to successfully interact with humans, let alone Japanese friends whom I would be able to get along with. I feel that every human interaction is a waste of time, as everyone is talking to everyone else, and even though I do not interrupt the conversations, I never get a turn to do anything conversation-related, and ignored. It seems as though my attempt to socialize with the human race only resulted in failure, and now alcohol is my best friend, I want to drink, drink, drink, and drink until I can not feel pain anymore, drink, and ****ing drink!!!!!
You clearly have enough problems, why add more?! That's why I don't drink excessively. Alcohol is not your friend. In the end, you are compounding the problem.
If you like video games, maybe you can make a friend in the gaming community online? XBox would be a good route.
I went through a time where I did drink, but once it went too far and I drank way too much and got drink the very next day. After that I never wanted to drink like that again. I drink sometimes, but very rarely.
You clearly have enough problems, why add more?! That's why I don't drink excessively. Alcohol is not your friend. In the end, you are compounding the problem.
If you like video games, maybe you can make a friend in the gaming community online? XBox would be a good route.
If you clearly read the post that says "Honestly, I'm in a middle of a struggle, and when humans consistently tell you "You are not doing this right", and then another person comes up to you and tells you the exact opposite, I don't even know anymore. And no I do not drink everyday 24/7, like the original post implies. I know what will happen if I did drink everyday 24/7 after some shows I have seen with my mother about alcoholism, which stopped me from becoming an alcoholic in its tracks." then you would know that I am not actually drinking as much as the first post implied, but rather am feeling hopeless the situation I'm in, and I distrust people enough that I wouldn't even bother to play games with them online, I much rather blow up alien carcasses in Quake II and watch the guts and gore cover the room, pretending that its someone that I really do not like. Instead of drinking now, I just play the most violent games I can get my hands on and watch the blood spill; its better than drinking, right? Not to hurt you or anything, but I am just mentioning that I do not drink that frequently, because I know what will happen if I did, like I have mentioned in a post I made above.
Alcohol is becoming a problem for me too... id rathr drink alone and emote than accept the world. Once a month getting smashed alone was for a bit then once a week, now its more often, but the hangovers make it not worth it, and the things you said or did or dont remember... omg.. ugh
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