advice PLEASE

[cloaked]

please... someone give me some advice. please be considerate of my post and say something. i need it.... please.

i have to describe my situation first. i'm 18. i force myself to go to 1 college class (after withdrawing from 2 others) and to a part time job. i have never had a serious relationship and i lone for a girlfriend so badly.

now let me explain my problem i need help with. the issues i have... i don't even know if they have names for. i can't talk about girls around family members. i could never see myself saying "she's pretty" in front of another family member, but ohhh if only they knew...if only they knew.... i love girls so much. there are so many beutiful girls in this world. i think i understand girls pretty well too. BUT my family has no idea how badly i want a girlfriend.

what am i to do if i want a girlfriend (which is trouble finding one as it is) when i have issues with being open about girls with my family. i just don't know what to do. i don't think i'm ugly, i mean, there are other issues i have in which i won't improve my appearance around my family, that's a whole different issue right there, but anyways, let's say i knew a girl who liked me, and i liked her (i don't really, but lets say i do) what am i to do in that situation??

someone... anyone, if you have any advice for someone like me, PLEASE help me.

thank you...

 

[stardog]

same situation..not in a position to give advice unfortunately

 

[false]

I know exactly how you feel, its like if you speak the words and show that you are human everyone will go huh??

I fell myself waiting for oppurtunities to express how I think a certain girl is pretty or something like that, but whenever those situations emerge I just kinda nod my head and go "yeah".

I am afraid people assume I'm gay because of this, and I honestly can't blame them for thinking that. But when you have that thought in your mind its even harder to try and express your sexuality to people.

I do have one thing planned though, the day I finally publicy show that I am in fact interested in the opposite sex by actually being with a girl somehwere, I am going to ask my family and co-workers: "So, who just lost a bet?" =)

Take small steps, don't beat yourself up, and hang in there. I can see myself slowly improving and I know it will eventually lead me to happiness.

Best wishes.