Leesa35
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Also new at this... just recently found out there was actually a name to this dreadful condition SA.
I am 35 and have had SA since I was 15. I have lived with it for 20 years but it has gotten much worse with age. I try my darndest to avoid all social gatherings, even with my hubbys family which I have known for 17 years. I do not feel comfortable around anyone outside of my hubby and daughter. I can't talk to people, I freeze up when someone tries to talk to me, if I am in a store and I see someone I know, I pray that they did not see me and I will head off in another direction. I can't even bring myself to go outside and check my own mailbox because God forbid a neighbor may speak to me! I can't even work, I have had 4 jobs my whole life and they lasted only a few months. I feel like such a recluse and I hate it!
I am tired of living this way. I am not only ruining my own life anymore but also ruining my hubbys and daughters. My hubby is very outgoing, will talk to anyone and loves to be around people and he does not understand why I am so backwards. My daughter is 12 and she is at that age where she wants friends to come and stay the night and she wants to stay the night with them, but I can't meet the parents. I am scared stiff even thinking about it. I wont even go to events at my daughters school anymore.
I know that people think that I am a snob and they think that I am rude but I can't help that, I just can't seem to fit in anywhere.
I can't even get up enough courage to talk to my doc about this. I have heard that your regular doc will only refer you to a specialist and I do not have any health insurance and cannot afford this. Can anyone tell me how they approached their doc about SA? And does your regular doc treat you or did you have to see a specialist?
I am also afraid to take antidepressants, I have heard horror stories about them and it scares the whiz out of me that I will have to take a strong drug that will mess me up even more than I already am. Is there a safe and effective medication for SA?
Thanks for any advice!
I am 35 and have had SA since I was 15. I have lived with it for 20 years but it has gotten much worse with age. I try my darndest to avoid all social gatherings, even with my hubbys family which I have known for 17 years. I do not feel comfortable around anyone outside of my hubby and daughter. I can't talk to people, I freeze up when someone tries to talk to me, if I am in a store and I see someone I know, I pray that they did not see me and I will head off in another direction. I can't even bring myself to go outside and check my own mailbox because God forbid a neighbor may speak to me! I can't even work, I have had 4 jobs my whole life and they lasted only a few months. I feel like such a recluse and I hate it!
I am tired of living this way. I am not only ruining my own life anymore but also ruining my hubbys and daughters. My hubby is very outgoing, will talk to anyone and loves to be around people and he does not understand why I am so backwards. My daughter is 12 and she is at that age where she wants friends to come and stay the night and she wants to stay the night with them, but I can't meet the parents. I am scared stiff even thinking about it. I wont even go to events at my daughters school anymore.
I know that people think that I am a snob and they think that I am rude but I can't help that, I just can't seem to fit in anywhere.
I can't even get up enough courage to talk to my doc about this. I have heard that your regular doc will only refer you to a specialist and I do not have any health insurance and cannot afford this. Can anyone tell me how they approached their doc about SA? And does your regular doc treat you or did you have to see a specialist?
I am also afraid to take antidepressants, I have heard horror stories about them and it scares the whiz out of me that I will have to take a strong drug that will mess me up even more than I already am. Is there a safe and effective medication for SA?
Thanks for any advice!