Scottish_Player
Well-known member
I havent posted here in a while, and without sonding cheeky/arrogant or what ever, the reason i dont use it no more is because i dont need it now. In a way iam free.
When i came here about a year and a half ago it was such a great site to find, to see that i wasnt the only one but then i started to wallow in self pitty, i went to the doctors and got meds, then i bought shit loads of herbel stuff from the net and guess what.. none of it worked for me, iam not saying thats the case for everyone. The only thing i have changed is the way i think.
It wasnt just a case of wake up one morning and it was solved, its taken about a year and a bit and even now iam still not where i want to be but iam getting there and and a fast rate. Iam never going to be the life and sole of the party, iam never going to get up on stage and do kareoke or go dancing in a club, there is no point for me aiming for stuff like that because i will only fail and then i will feel bad about myself and get caught up in the circle again. Instead i aimed for little things, stuff i know i can reach and kept my goals low.
I had to learn to be happy with myself first and accept who iam before i could help myself and by doing this it has increased my confidence more.
Simple stuff i couldnt do was stuff like answer phones or answer the door but now it happens without even thinking about it. Iam palnning a tour of Scotland/Ireland for next year and before the thought of it would have terrified me to be away from familier surroundings but now i have built up my confidence and iam actualy looking forward to it. Its given me something to aim for and something else to think about.
I dont really have a point here other than i want to let people know that it can be over come, i do accept that for some people it can be a chemical imbalance, for me i think i was just looking for a tag to give it then take a few pills and it would all be better again but it dosent work like that, you have to learn to see the positive in EVERTHING and put the negative aside. I did have self diagonosed depression for about 2/3 years and at that time i thought nothing was ever going to change, i had thoughts of ending it all but now i dont know how i ever thought like that.
One thing i do want to do is say thanks to all the people on here who replied to my msgs when i was feeling like shit and gave advice and encouragement, becasue without this site and finding out what was wrong with me who knows what situation i would be in now?
When i came here about a year and a half ago it was such a great site to find, to see that i wasnt the only one but then i started to wallow in self pitty, i went to the doctors and got meds, then i bought shit loads of herbel stuff from the net and guess what.. none of it worked for me, iam not saying thats the case for everyone. The only thing i have changed is the way i think.
It wasnt just a case of wake up one morning and it was solved, its taken about a year and a bit and even now iam still not where i want to be but iam getting there and and a fast rate. Iam never going to be the life and sole of the party, iam never going to get up on stage and do kareoke or go dancing in a club, there is no point for me aiming for stuff like that because i will only fail and then i will feel bad about myself and get caught up in the circle again. Instead i aimed for little things, stuff i know i can reach and kept my goals low.
I had to learn to be happy with myself first and accept who iam before i could help myself and by doing this it has increased my confidence more.
Simple stuff i couldnt do was stuff like answer phones or answer the door but now it happens without even thinking about it. Iam palnning a tour of Scotland/Ireland for next year and before the thought of it would have terrified me to be away from familier surroundings but now i have built up my confidence and iam actualy looking forward to it. Its given me something to aim for and something else to think about.
I dont really have a point here other than i want to let people know that it can be over come, i do accept that for some people it can be a chemical imbalance, for me i think i was just looking for a tag to give it then take a few pills and it would all be better again but it dosent work like that, you have to learn to see the positive in EVERTHING and put the negative aside. I did have self diagonosed depression for about 2/3 years and at that time i thought nothing was ever going to change, i had thoughts of ending it all but now i dont know how i ever thought like that.
One thing i do want to do is say thanks to all the people on here who replied to my msgs when i was feeling like shit and gave advice and encouragement, becasue without this site and finding out what was wrong with me who knows what situation i would be in now?