A group in front of the neighbor's house

[NightTimeForever]

So, during my three days off (thurs, frid, sat) I really didn't accomplish a whole lot. Tonight as I was in my front yard about to open the door to my house, I noticed a group of kids my age in a group in front of the neighbor's house. I remember wanting to interact with them, but of course I would've appeared a little slow just walking up to them. It was just, there was this yearning there.

I remember feeling an acute lonliness and sudden alienation (of course I really wasn't technically alienated, but the feeling was there still). Just damn, this SA sucks and it makes me realize what I have missed out on.

Anyone else had this happen to them?

 

[chris87]

Whenever I see groups of people (especially my age), it always makes me feel lonely. I used to have this problem in high school, because I felt like I was the only person without friends. Everyone would be talking about what they were doing for the weekend, and of course, I never had any plans.

 

[littl3misstrange]

Whenever I see people my own age, this intense feeling of anxiety comes over me. I always look away, expecting them to start making comments about how freakish I look. It's almost like I can't bring myself to look at them for too long because I'm not "worthy" or something. I can't even explain it.
I also feel incredibly lonely seeing them interact with each other & be normal teenagers. I know that that period in my life is coming to end, & that my SP has caused me to waste it all away.