Re: nan died.
Dreamer_15 said:
the saturday before last, my gran died

im devastated and its made my depression and cutting so so bad...i dont know what to do. im on prozac but i keep washing it down the sink coz i hate taking pills..im cutting practically every night and have 2 big cuts on my arm and one big one on my leg which is clearly visible...what do i do? has anyone else had someone really close to them die, how did you cope? what do you do to ease the pain? any help appreciated.
Firstly am sorry for your loss. My advice if possible talk to people, express just how bad you feel. I am sorry to say this but there is no way to avoid the fact that this pain will be there, losing someone you love makes that inevitable. However the nature of that pain does change over time, and I promise eventually it will. I am not saying that it will not hurt, it will, but there will come a time when it is not so allconsuming.
Talk to family, friends, find a quiet space for you to rage against it all, go for a long walk. think about the good stuff you remember about your nan, maybe the GP is an idea. Everyone copes with grief in different ways and you will find one for yours. I am sorry I cannot be more specific or offer any constructive advice.
As for the cutting talk to your GP, the Samaritans, friends you trust and when you feel the desire to cut whatever coping strategy you have let it kick in. Phone a friend and talk it through with them for example - easier said than done I know.
Again good luck.