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testobot

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Re: i have to do this :)

missquiet said:
Hey everyone! I'm 21 and have been quiet/shy/socially phobic/selectively mute for most of my life....anyways..I saw the thread about making a spreadsheet with things you want to accomplish on it(http://www.socialphobiaworld.com/postt7094.html) so I thought I should try it. Posting in forums is kind of hard for me..even a little typo gets to me and it takes so much effort just to press submit.. so one of the things on my list was to try posting here a little more.

I was too scared to even read anything on here until about a month ago when we did a little section on anxiety disorders for my psych class. We ended up watching a video on social anxiety which was just horrible. There were around 300 people in the class...so when the video started I seriously felt like they were all watching me up there on screen...(not to mention some dumb guys behind me kept going hah! every 2 seconds) It was SO hard to sit through..but at the same time i couldn't make myself leave. So for a while i felt really bad about it and after that I just figured I needed to learn more about SA and my issues.. so here I am. :)

Hi Missquiet- welcome to the forum and good job on posting. I also was once afraid of posting. I always made mistakes- like typos and having to correct them- I was afraid of what people may think about my constant edits..haha- but no biggie- negative evalutation of my posts are not the worst thing that can happen to me and I have learned to get over the slight 'fear' of edits..hehe. Sorry, I am laughing at myself- but I can relate to your fear of how people may evaluate postings. I actually get few responses to my posts :( ... but as far as you are concerned-- I can definitely relate to your anxiety when covering anxiety disorders in class--I just recently experienced this. I became tense just hearing the anxiety disorders and then became even more anxious wondering whether or not people could see that I was feeling anxious and what they may have thought of me if they did realize that I was anxious.

I am curious though.. were these people going hah! or haha.. as in being just goofy and silly or making fun or SAD?

Anyways, I also had selective mutism when I was younger... I feel this way sometimes now.. especially when in casual social conversations ... but maybe now it is more SAD because I will not absolutely refuse to speak.. except in some very extreme and very rare circumstances.

But, good job on the posting... I know it took some effort on your part and you should feel proud of taking a positive step.
 

Chilling__Echo

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hi! glad you did post :) i always look on the MM thingie and it always has such a high guest number and i wonder how many of those are long time lurkers afraid to post. just remember that we're all like you and the last thing we're gonna do is judge you.

yeah, i had a psych class that went over SP and i had the same feeling! i felt like everyone was watching me, or that i'd blush and someone would point me out :oops:
 

Septor

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Re: i have to do this :)

missquiet said:
Hey everyone! I'm 21 and have been quiet/shy/socially phobic/selectively mute for most of my life....anyways..I saw the thread about making a spreadsheet with things you want to accomplish on it(http://www.socialphobiaworld.com/postt7094.html) so I thought I should try it. Posting in forums is kind of hard for me..even a little typo gets to me and it takes so much effort just to press submit.. so one of the things on my list was to try posting here a little more.

I was too scared to even read anything on here until about a month ago when we did a little section on anxiety disorders for my psych class. We ended up watching a video on social anxiety which was just horrible. There were around 300 people in the class...so when the video started I seriously felt like they were all watching me up there on screen...(not to mention some dumb guys behind me kept going hah! every 2 seconds) It was SO hard to sit through..but at the same time i couldn't make myself leave. So for a while i felt really bad about it and after that I just figured I needed to learn more about SA and my issues.. so here I am. :)


Welcome to spw Missquiet.I can empathize with you Missquiet about the the posting and making typos.It took me quite a long time to get up the nerve to make my first post because I was afraid I would make a typo but you did a good job on your first post and I hope it's the first many.

I realize how hard it must have been for you to post here but you should proud of your self that you took the first step in learning about your problem.It's not always the easiest thing to do.So good luck and hope to see more post from you around here. :D :D :D
 
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