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When i went to the doctors and he gave me meds i thought that my problem would be solved,so with all the enthusiasim in the world i swallowed my first pill at 9.20 on a Tuesday morning...bad move.After taking about 5 days to recover from it i will never touch meds again but it did have a good out come.During those 5 days my anxiety was worse than i had ever felt,i had worse suicide thoughts that ive ever had and somthing else hapened to me thats never happened before i was worried sick about going out after being in the house for those days,it was diffrent from just being paranoid it was real fear and i had thoughts of not being able to go back to work and having to get the men in white coats around.Anyway getting to the good outcome......As my anxiety/fear/panic was the worst ive ever had and i managed to get through it in the end, it made my everyday anxiety/fear/panic seem like nothing compared to it.It makes handleing my everyday anxiety seem easy if you see what i mean.

In such a short time i have felt my self change so much,in the past 2 weeks its like i feel like a diffrent person and i dont realy know why? i though it may be to do with going to the doctor and just being able to tell someone about myself or maybe its to do with changing how i think, to be truthfull iam not realy sure and i wish i did know so that i could share it with you's

Sorry for the pointless post i just though i would share it

That's cool SP. Sorry to hear about the meds though that must of been crap. I think I changed a bit too after seeing the Doc and telling people about it. Not sure why but I guess being open and honest is a step forward in itself maybe. Hope it continues to go well.

grumblina said:

I took a drug for about four weeks last month and I've never felt more suicidal or depressed.

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Its strange that dont you think? a drug that is suppose to help you ends up making you worse :roll:

Mines said on the packet somthing about getting a little more anxious before it works but i think i'll pass on meds for the time being,not that there is anything wrong with them as alot of people do get help from them.

Scottish_Player said:

grumblina said:

I took a drug for about four weeks last month and I've never felt more suicidal or depressed.

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Its strange that dont you think? a drug that is suppose to help you ends up making you worse :roll:

Mines said on the packet somthing about getting a little more anxious before it works but i think i'll pass on meds for the time being,not that there is anything wrong with them as alot of people do get help from them.

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Unfortunately some meds make some people even worse. I know there was alot of problems with Seroxat recently. Even more unfortunately there seems to be no way of telling how it will affect who. I guess it's trial and error

Yossarian said:

I think I changed a bit too after seeing the Doc and telling people about it. Not sure why but I guess being open and honest is a step forward in itself maybe.

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The doctor is the first person i have sat down with face to face and spoken to about my problems and i think it has realy helped its like a release kinda thing like ive managed to let somthing go ..........i dont realy know...i am talking crap now :roll: ............. :lol:

Scottish_Player said:

The doctor is the first person i have sat down with face to face and spoken to about my problems and i think it has realy helped its like a release kinda thing like ive managed to let somthing go ..........i dont realy know...i am talking crap now :roll: ............. :lol:

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I agree with the release thing. I just don't know how it works lol. After my first appointment I felt so calm and so relaxed walking about town. That was before the meds kicked in. I think it was because I felt it was ok to be who I was and that things would get better. Didn't last unfortunately but hey, it was nice while it lasted. I think I should of took more advantage of the calmness and put myself about a bit more lol

Ive never realy taken any kind of medication before for anything,but when i do i get all anxious about putting this foreign thing in my body which i only think adds to the effect of feeling ill and anxious if you know what i mean

Hey Scottish, sucks that happened but kudos to you for finding to positive affects out of all of it! i can say i've been depressed only one time in my life and i've found that i fear it more than before b/c i know what it feels like now. it's like an ominous cloud in my past and the thought of it raining on me again scares me quite a bit.

but i like what you've posted! don't get me wrong, i'm not a depressed or sad person really, but there's always that thought in the back of my mind... luckily i've not had suck experiences with meds like that but i've not tried too many and i don't like taking them b/c of the side effects. what were you on again? leprexo? something like that?...

are you going to try meds again, only something different? and glad you're seein a doc, every bit of help you can get...well... helps :wink: exp actually talking to him/her. it's hard to open up and some people i know don't take advantage of that support or advice for fear of opening up too much. good luck to you!

Hi Scottish Player,

I feel the same. Since I have been reading everyone's posts and sharing some of my own story/fears I feel better.

SG

great that you feel better after the medication situation. I have been told that it can take weeks for the meds to really take in effect. However, whatever works for you. sometimes it takes time to adjust and to try out different types of meds to see how one willl react.
The main thing is that you feel better after talking to your doctor baout your issues. you perhaps feel Validated or real with yourself and you share your REAL self with someone without being judeged or embarrassed. That is what I get from consistently going to therapy. Good luck keep strong and based on your description on how you feel, you appear to have confidence.