T T T
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I have decided to keep this journal mostly for myself, and if people find it interesting, care to share advice or similar experiences, then thank you very much. 
Now, I will say now that not all of my posts will be rants and cries for help, though there will probably be quite a number of them. That said, I would like to keep this journal interesting, and try and provide any readers with information such as people that are inspiring me, current music, positive things I have done throughout the day; that sort of thing.
So about me then I guess.
I have just finished compulsary eductation, my final GCSE (O Level) exams are tomorrow. Geography and media, dosen't get much easier right? I am so nervous, and not because of the exams. I will reluctantly begin the day at 7am, get showerd and changed into my skinny jeans, black and red striped buttoned shirt, and blue jumper; I like to plan. As eight oclock begins to approach I will begin to feel sick and nervous as the idea of getting on the school bus on my own approaches. I will awkwardley sit alone on the bus surrounded by excited school pupils, and focus intently on my music, i'm thinking.. Angels and Airwaves? So finally I will get off the bus, stand up by my seat and wait for half the bus to get off before me, do my awkward twitch that I seem to do when I feel like i'm beging watched, say an un-noticed 'thank you' to the bus driver, and finally get off the bus. As the entire schools seems to surround me being unloaded from their busses, I swiftly and awkwardly walk towards my girlfriend, who is always with a large group of friends. I will go over, we will break away from the crowd and everything will be fine. However, when the angry Scottish teacher tells us it is time to depart, that is when the dreaded walk to the students waiting outside the exam hall begins. As I walk over and faces become more recognisable I will desperatley try and pick someone out that I can stand with, whilst I worry that each member of the crowd is staring at me. Once we are told to line up in to order to make finding our seat in the exam easier, all is fine. Lots of people are on their own then because they have been told to break away from their friends, so I don't look to obvious. Walking in and out of the exam hall is obviously terrifying, but once i'm sat down and getting on with my thing, everything is more or less fine. I will then meet my girlfriend for lunch, and afterwards repeat all that.
This is what has encouraged me to start this journal. I am interested to predict a certain event, and describe how I believe it will go and then actual reality of it; though I probably wont do this every time.
So this is my Journal, I hope you find it interesting. I will be sure to post my exam experience tomorrow and find out how it went.
Thank you.
Now, I will say now that not all of my posts will be rants and cries for help, though there will probably be quite a number of them. That said, I would like to keep this journal interesting, and try and provide any readers with information such as people that are inspiring me, current music, positive things I have done throughout the day; that sort of thing.
So about me then I guess.
I have just finished compulsary eductation, my final GCSE (O Level) exams are tomorrow. Geography and media, dosen't get much easier right? I am so nervous, and not because of the exams. I will reluctantly begin the day at 7am, get showerd and changed into my skinny jeans, black and red striped buttoned shirt, and blue jumper; I like to plan. As eight oclock begins to approach I will begin to feel sick and nervous as the idea of getting on the school bus on my own approaches. I will awkwardley sit alone on the bus surrounded by excited school pupils, and focus intently on my music, i'm thinking.. Angels and Airwaves?
So finally I will get off the bus, stand up by my seat and wait for half the bus to get off before me, do my awkward twitch that I seem to do when I feel like i'm beging watched, say an un-noticed 'thank you' to the bus driver, and finally get off the bus. As the entire schools seems to surround me being unloaded from their busses, I swiftly and awkwardly walk towards my girlfriend, who is always with a large group of friends. I will go over, we will break away from the crowd and everything will be fine. However, when the angry Scottish teacher tells us it is time to depart, that is when the dreaded walk to the students waiting outside the exam hall begins. As I walk over and faces become more recognisable I will desperatley try and pick someone out that I can stand with, whilst I worry that each member of the crowd is staring at me. Once we are told to line up in to order to make finding our seat in the exam easier, all is fine. Lots of people are on their own then because they have been told to break away from their friends, so I don't look to obvious. Walking in and out of the exam hall is obviously terrifying, but once i'm sat down and getting on with my thing, everything is more or less fine. I will then meet my girlfriend for lunch, and afterwards repeat all that.This is what has encouraged me to start this journal. I am interested to predict a certain event, and describe how I believe it will go and then actual reality of it; though I probably wont do this every time.
So this is my Journal, I hope you find it interesting. I will be sure to post my exam experience tomorrow and find out how it went.
Thank you.
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