Hello all! so yeah - Let me introduce myself to everyone. My name is Vinny and I currently reside in Toronto Ontario and I have Social anxiety among other things (such as OCD). I believe the root cause of my SA would be the OCD aspect. To sum it up - I tend to over analyze everything... I have this feeling that I'm constantly being judged by others and that I don't meet up to par with their expectations. To make matters worse, I tend to talk less fluent and stutter and stammer when I get nervous and I am really hard on myself when I do. I constantly compare myself and my life to other people, especially those who are more successful which makes me a little depressed. I'm currently 29 years old, have a decent job (which I don't plan on making a career) and recently decided to go back to school for a BCOMM degree. School is another story - I tend to feel I'm not good enough or not smart enough, however I have pulled up some pretty remarkable grades. I guess I'm sort of putting myself in a loop of negative thoughts and selling myself short in many situations. I have a fear of growing old and being lonely. I'm planning on stepping out of my boundary in August for a solo trip to Italy, to see my roots and to get out of my comfort zone. I guess I've put myself in this zone where I feel comfortable; but I know in order to grow and to overcome future obstacles I have to step outside of that zone.
At first, I will appear social and very upbeat... But inside I'm constantly analyzing everything I just said and will say and it drives me insane. I wish I can just go with the flow in social situations and not deal with the thought of the other person thinking something negative of me. I often get praised by my peers for being thoughtful and intelligent but usually I think the opposite of myself. I know the sky is the limit, but I tend to lack motivation... I'm really hoping that I can change that. Lately I've been a little depressed but I've been battling that by support from friends and family. Ultimately, I want to get to the point where my negative thoughts don't effect me.
So yeah!
At first, I will appear social and very upbeat... But inside I'm constantly analyzing everything I just said and will say and it drives me insane. I wish I can just go with the flow in social situations and not deal with the thought of the other person thinking something negative of me. I often get praised by my peers for being thoughtful and intelligent but usually I think the opposite of myself. I know the sky is the limit, but I tend to lack motivation... I'm really hoping that I can change that. Lately I've been a little depressed but I've been battling that by support from friends and family. Ultimately, I want to get to the point where my negative thoughts don't effect me.
So yeah!
