question

when you guys think about suicide and stuff like that is it because you hate life, hate yourself, or both?

i don't really think about killing myself but i think about what would happen if i did. i do this because i hate myself, when someone talks to me or wants to be my friend i can't think of why they would want to be friends with me, it's not that im a bad person. i just really don't like myself.

Probably because I hate myself. Hm but it's not really hate.. it's mostly when I feel everyone doesn't like me and when I feel that my life is one big vicious circle that will never end. The fact is that it's mostly because I know my family would be very sorry if I killed myself that I haven't done it. Anyway.. hope and patience is the key.. :?

longlivesolitude said:

The fact is that it's mostly because I know my family would be very sorry if I killed myself that I haven't done it.

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yeah thats what stopped me, i couldnt do this to them.

I never attempted suicide, and I don't think I will ever "attempt" it. I am too much aware of the possibility of pain and the risk of harming or injuring myself badly if I fail. Besides, I will die anyway in a few decades, and up to now my life has not become so unbearable as to require an artificial end.

But if I ever choose to do it, I will make sure to use an effective, proven, well designed system. Has to be effective and as much pain-free as possible.

im afraid that everyone that i love around me is going to die and im going to live to be like 100 and be alone.

Probably because I dislike my life and the direction I've taken or lack of. Also, the pain is just too much for a mere mortal.