khasahara

2.Wow, The Castro is widely considered America's first openly gay neighborhood -- so cool. The Bay Area is a very lively place and San Francisco is quite compact, so I'm wondering how those realities are affecting you. I long to live in a less populated city (preferably, a town) because heavy populated areas tend to threaten me, for obvious reasons. I'm starting to feel a bit inspired because you're in a brand-new place and I'd kill to be. The Castro is near Golden Gate Park, which is worth seeing and the stress relieving properties of nature is always worth considering. How does your sister react when you don't leave the house? Were you able to go out today? If not, tomorrow is another day.

I eventually made that call, but a few days after I was supposed to lol. Surprise, surprise. I rarely answer calls and usually return them when good and ready, taking my sweet time.

1.Of course! That time of the month. Your friend that is unwelcome. Um, unfortunately I'm unable to relate to you in that department, so I can't offer any assistance, but we have other things in common lol. Um, so, good luck with that, stay dry and don't wear your good panties? lol!

Ah, I'm so ashamed of myself right now and I nearly cried in public today. I was visibly stirred and just wanted to disappear. Frighteningly, it's always as if everything is designed to fail, no matter how hard I try. I wasn't able to attend the orientation today (unforeseen circumstances), however, I'm trying to make arrangements for the one tomorrow. Since orientation is mandatory, if I'm unable to go tomorrow, then I'll have to miss out on the tournament completely. This really meant so much to me, too. What you said is what I must consier: at least I'm f*cking trying. ::

Thanks! Your encouragement is greatly appreciated. I've been giving myself pep talks throughout the morning.

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So much responsibility in such a potentially unsettling environment. I willingly signed up for this and they're counting on me, so I'll just march into the fire now, lol.

I also read your entry in that thread. I invariably experience that feeling of being stuck in cement. What's going on with the ovaries!? What area would you like to explore?

I'll check in with you later to see how things went.

Hey, just wanted to really thank you for opening up to me in your PM's. You obviously trust me with sensitive information, and that's great. I've enjoyed reading your story so far, I don't consider it babble and it doesn't overwhelm me. I'll reply as soon as possible! Promise. These visitor messages should keep you occupied until then. ::

You mentioned that you have difficulty with verbally expressing yourself. Are you able to express yourself in alternative ways? Have you taken up creative writing or an art of any sort? My muteness helped cultivate my skills in writing and my love for art.

The sound of my voice somehow manages to be a characteristic of mine that isn't an issue. I'm basically satisfied with it now, however, people always have to cup their ears or move their heads closer to hear what I'm saying. I don't like speaking loudly because it draws attention to me (yet I'm very tall, ha). Well, shyness and speaking softly go hand in hand. Actually, girls who sound young are very adorable, in my opinion. It adds to the apparition of innocence, but something tells me you're not innocent! No, I don't judge. ::
I carefully choose my words at all times (an obsession), so I don't know if my diction can be considered lazy. Being nuts sort of keeps ya on your toes! My topsy turvy brain is sort of like my coffee in the morning. Is your soft voice mistaken for weakness? Do you find that you appear as a doormat?

Deal. We'll do it together. I'm gonna ask you later, so be ready!

I do the note thing before calls, too. "My name is___, may I speak to___, I'm calling because___" otherwise, I'll draw a blank, lol. And then my voice / brain begins to fail me and it find myself submerged. Customer service sounds like such a nightmare, but kudos to you for tackling that job.

I'm sure your voice isn't too bad. Do you have an accent of some sort?

I avoided making a phone call today, something that I must do tomorrow. It's always incredibly difficult for me to perform even simple tasks.

Tired? Was this night any better than last night? Don't let me keep you up, lol.

You better keep it coming! Just think of me as a target... now aim!

You may feel barely there, but I surely notice you.

I'm still reading your PM's. Thanks so much.

Ah! I'm scared!

You're welcome. Really hope you feel better, too. Goodnight.

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3.I AM into being creeped out, but usually stay away from The Tenderloin area there in San Francisco, lol.::. I've got this strange fear of spending the rest of my life in prison, so Alcatraz was like "uhhh". Go to a Warriors game next season at Oracle! They're terrible, but they need your support! Say hello to Adrian Monk for me, if you run into him. Are you liking it so far? I would imagine that it's drastically different from Virginia. I think the Bay Area is a tolerant, artsy, indie-oriented place, and I really like that about it.

2.You're not being nosy, it's okay. It's quite intriguing actually. I moved to Hawaii by myself and lived in the jungle at an eco-village, several miles outside of a very small town. It was beside the ocean, too. An active volcano in the background and a storybook sunset every night to match. Why did I leave, right? Let's just say that I wasn't prepared for life on my own (deer in the headlights) and social anxiety / usual maladies got the better of me. Then, I moved to New York and lived with someone I used to know (took the train clear across America, coast to coast), but they turned out to be very abusive and I had to remove myself from that situation. All in all, I'm reluctantly back at home, drowning yet plotting.

1.Thanks for what you said.

OOH, this is already breaking out into multiple parts! ::. I can understand your apprehension about job hunting, it's such an exhausting and sometimes degrading process. Recently, I've been looking as if my life depends on it (it sort of does), but no luck yet. What kind of job will you look for? What did you do back in Virginia? Perhaps it wasn't favorable if you left it all behind. So, maybe things can only get better from this point on. I've got ears that can withstand the biggest mouths in the world, so don't worry about that. San Francisco can be very expensive, so I wouldn't be surprised if your sister was on your butt about finding a job. ::

Well, I would blush, but my natural tan sort of prevents that from happening.

Hey, sometimes a good shakeup is really necessary, especially for social phobes like us who tend to live a life of monotonous repetition, so good for you! I tried that twice and failed miserably, lol. But, at least I tried and will do so again in the future. Baby steps! A giant leap sounds better, though.

I'm in San Diego. I have a half-sister who lives in Oakland, so yeah. Did you see the Full House house yet? No!? What are you waiting for!? And the Alcatraz tour was rather depressing. ::

So, you befriend people based on how good-looking they are? How shallow of you. Just kidding.

What's going on in the bay area? I get up there sometimes.

Thanks for the friend request! You've got such a cute smile, plus the glasses... I just don't know what to do.

Hey Khasahara I was curious, do you have Adrian from Rocky in your Avatar because you can relate to her personality?