oXyKevn
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hello, my name is kevin and i am new to this forum and have hopes that it may help me in some way, just to know that there may be people like me out there makes me feel a little better, i have a major problem on my hands, and i would like to start off saying i was diagnosed with ADD when i was about 13, i took adderall for it, and zoloft, then i found they didnt work and i went through EVERY anti depressant/anxiety medication there is, so i turned to illicit drugs, i smoked marijuana for a couple years it did wonders, all of a sudden i had SEVERE PANIC ATTACKS, so i quit that immediately, then turned to alcohol which worked for a few years, now im almost 22yrs and recently started to have a panic attack once every few months, then once a month, then once a week, now im curled up into a ball thinking im dieing everyday, i can't even work, i took medical leave, im currently on xanax 2mg as needed, which is about 3 times a day for me, but i also take oxycontin and percocets recreationally everyday all day pretty much, i love the way they make me feel, but now it seems like they are turning on me so im weening myself off or trying to, and it seems like my life is just in a downward spiral, afraid to die and afraid to live, i have 2 kids and im about to lose everything. i see a therapist ontop of my regular doctor, and nothing is helping, if this continues i don't know if i will be able to handle it, my family doesnt understand it, they think im a drug addict, which i dont deny, but im trying to better myself and i feel like im dieing everyday, my life is one big panic, my question is, is there anyone else that feels like this? and do oxycontins induce panic? do my past drug use habits have anything to do with what im feeling today? im sorry for the long post and i appreciate anyone who has read all of it and replied. i feel like im about to hit my breaking point guys, please give me some input, thanks.
-kevn-
-kevn-