Phobia and me

Good day

I have this problem that started out when I was about 5 or 6 years in age. First I gave people a very vague description as to what it was that made me so anxious, thus not getting much help from parents ect. Later I developed this panic about infinity and how big the universe is, also then at about age 13 it became other things such as Closter phobia, fear of wide open spaces, fear of being trapped inside the planet with no air around us in the outer space. I was unable to play sports, go see friends and sleep over due to this phobia’s. it still is very serious today, and I have seen many professionals in order to get help. Anti-depressants is all the doctors can give me, but now days at age 24 it just does not seem to help. I shiver all the time, sweaty hands and the worst is the head aches, and dizziness. I still have the fear of infinity; it’s been around since I was a kid. It’s so bad that I cannot perform in my job. I get hyperventilated and dizzy each day, and I feel like I want to give up for good. I have bounced around medication and doctors, but they just don’t seem to see my seriousness of the problem. Am I alone in this? And will this ever go away. My whole life as I know it has been a struggle to be normal. Okay I know I complain a lot, but I think after so many years of suffer I can do little else; I really want to end this shit. If only death was easier I’d give it another try.

This sound very negative… hope I can get something out of this letter.

LavA – South Africa.

Hi. You aren't alone. If I remember correctly 1 in 10 people have a serious phobia. Fear of small spaces is especially common. As for the fear of infinity, I can totally relate. The idea used to make me very uncomfortable. It didn't make sense to me that something could have no end. Now, I've learned to recognise that my fear of infinity was simply a fear of the unknown. I've come to accept that I can't understand everything. The universe is filled with mysteries that the human mind is not even capable of comprehending. I've learned to be at peace with this fact and live life day to day. I still have other phobia's and problems with anxiety, but I've gotten over the fear of infinity, and you can too.

I would definitely recommend continuing to see a doctor. Though antidepressants didn't work for you at first, you might be able to find a different type that will. I would also try speaking to a psychologist. They may be able to help you to get over these phobias.

Don't give up, you're not alone! There are always people out there who understand and who want to help you. Keep your spirits up!

coming to this website and talking about your feelings is a great start.

well thank you veryThanks a lot for the replies (Layla and ralyssap); I guess all im seeking in life is a answer or solution to my phobias and anxiety. I belief that if one day I know why I’m like this then it’ll att just disappear for good. Actually im a very nice guy, but lately all I do I complain to myself and in my head, this will not help my cause I know, but everyday it gets harder and more of a mission. Being dizzy and weird in the head is the biggest problem now. I have no other fears at this stage, if this dizziness would disappear then I’ll be a lot happier. Hehe

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