On the inside looking out

Hi everyone! I´m so glad I found this website.....I don´t feel so alone now. I didn´t know I had SA until just recently. I always thought I was just shy and super sensitive. My SA is mild but bad enough that I have problems getting out and making friends or agressively finding a job. I feel ashamed that I have this problem and I feel that "normal" people wouldn´t understand. I feel trapped, I feel like I´m in my own prison and I feel like the world is passing me by. I feel guily that I don´t make more of an effort to be brave. I feel like a coward for letting my fear control me. But staying at home is so much more comfortable where no one can judge me or embarass me and where I feel safe. I´ve accepted my problem and I love and trust myself but sometimes I feel that acceptance is also giving up or just an excuse to do nothing to help myself. I don´t want to take medication because I have taken medication before for depression and I didn´t like the way it made me feel fake like my happiness wasn´t real. It just wasn´t natural to be happy and perky all the time. Mind you it did help with my anxiety. I just wish I could snap my fingers and be able to face the world without fear and without shame. I´m glad that I found this website.....now I can share my feelings with people who understand.

I feel pretty much the same as you do. I don't have SA very bad, but it's definitly enough to make it very hard to make friends, even with people I work with. And I'm just so reserved it can be hard for me to make converstion sometimes, unless it's someone I've known for years. If I'm with people I know I usually have no problem going out, I just don't like going out by myself.

I feel the same way too. My SA is not the worst but its bad enough and it makes me feel depressed. i feel like no one understands what im feeling which i why i'm so glad i found this site and its great to talk to people who understand how im feeling and dont just think im crazy.

Welcome to the site blueberry, hope you find it as helpfull as i do

What is sociol phobia ?

Lexmark said:

What is sociol phobia ?

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It's different depending on who you talk to and some people have it worse than others. For me it's that I just get real shy around people I don't know. I want people to like me so much that I'm afraid I'll say or do something stupid. Plus if I don't know someone I don't know what to talk about. I just get very self concious around people I don't know. Some people have it so bad they just avoid meeting new people all together. When I am with my friends who I have known for several years I'm not nervous at all.

If I'm with people I know I usually have no problem going out, I just don't like going out by myself.

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Me too. I get really nervous having to always show up places by myself. If I just had someone to show up with or go with...
Welcome Blueberry! This site helped me a lot. Hope it helps you too .