BFox
New member
Hi, I just found this forum tonight, and it's a relief. Silly thing is, I was almost apprehensive about registering, but want to reach out.
I've had social anxiety almost as far back as I can remember. I do wish I could mingle and 'get in the mix', but the fear and feelings of inadequacy stop me. The other thing that makes it even harder to overcome: the more shy or fearful I feel, the more tense, unapproachable and 'grumpy' I look on the outside, and I can see it makes others uncomfortable. Inside I'msaying, "No, please: I'm not cranky - I'm just SCARED!" and wish so terribly that I could connect socially. Trying to smile feels like I'm naked!
I'm finding that this is having a detrimental effect in so many ways for me. A prime example being that I almost feel like I'm going to faint when I try to walk into my classes at college. I've missed so many classes and fallen behind to the point where the instructors have made comments that they feel that I am not putting forth effort aka slacker (I've explained to them about the flu season, kids and being a single parent in the situation) but can't bring myself to also tell them about how hard it is to walk into a room full of people. It's broken my heart because through the duration of the program (2 years), I've watched the other students create bonds and friendships and feel so left out and I wish it wasn't so. Damn social anxiety!
Perhaps a silly question, but does any of this sound familiar to anyone?
I've had social anxiety almost as far back as I can remember. I do wish I could mingle and 'get in the mix', but the fear and feelings of inadequacy stop me. The other thing that makes it even harder to overcome: the more shy or fearful I feel, the more tense, unapproachable and 'grumpy' I look on the outside, and I can see it makes others uncomfortable. Inside I'msaying, "No, please: I'm not cranky - I'm just SCARED!" and wish so terribly that I could connect socially. Trying to smile feels like I'm naked!
I'm finding that this is having a detrimental effect in so many ways for me. A prime example being that I almost feel like I'm going to faint when I try to walk into my classes at college. I've missed so many classes and fallen behind to the point where the instructors have made comments that they feel that I am not putting forth effort aka slacker (I've explained to them about the flu season, kids and being a single parent in the situation) but can't bring myself to also tell them about how hard it is to walk into a room full of people. It's broken my heart because through the duration of the program (2 years), I've watched the other students create bonds and friendships and feel so left out and I wish it wasn't so. Damn social anxiety!
Perhaps a silly question, but does any of this sound familiar to anyone?