PrettyBoy

Hey man how are things? I have few friends on my friends list who I do not hear from.
Just like in real life.

Yeah listened to the first tape last night but im gonna listen to it properly tonight and make note of what handouts to go over. Thanks again, so much!!!

Yup- Got it! You, sir, are an absolute bloody legend!! I dont think the one you sent had the handouts tho' so if ya want ill send em tya if you need em at any stage!

if you can learn to sit still and observe your own mind, even while your brain is bugging out, and keep calm and poise. You will start developing the ability to do it anywhere you go, around anyone. It's amazing how the mind can heal itself if you provide it the right environment to do so...oh yea, love helps alot. forgiveness of those who wronged you helps alot. You can do it. I stand before you today God, Jesus Christ is my witness it is poossible to go from a literal quivering pile like i suddenly was, to almost complete soundness of mind! you will be stronger than ever before once you overcome this. it wasnt easy but i was at the end of my rope and had to do something as no one was really helping me. so i know you can do it, i believe anyone can, but take your time. it took me around 5 years? i guess for the anxiety to not return. i still have to work though because if this taught me anything, is that relaxation is a skill to be developed. Not always going to feel natural

oh yea, the one thing that helped the most (next to prayer). i started meditating seriously everyday. It got to the point thats is all i would do. then i would fast a day or two. and in about 3 to 4 months changes for the better started to take place. i remember the only place i would go was the library. thats where i found thiis book called beginner's mind. a book on zazen meditation. It was a wrap ever after. helped tremendously.

tell you a funny story...(at least now to me it is). i remember one time, i was by myself walking home. Around the old neighborhood i lived all my life. Everything was normal when i got this urgency to just start running, like something was after me. lol. i mean i knew there wasn't anything there but guess what...? i did! lol i just started running like all hell. yea, thats when i knew i was completely buggin out.

That is really good advice and i thank you for the encouragement. As far as you not being out there yet doesn't matter, when you are right, you're right. I respect that all the same. My recovery was gradual.2)Series of realizations took place. (this is the most difficult to explain).i could just finally start seeing how i had been thinking that contributed to the feelings (even as irrational as my fear was). I realized thoughts were the real issue somehow.you ever forced your self to sit in a completely dark room? ever get spooked? was very much like that. in the dark, it feels like "something" is going to happen, but if i sit it out...it never does.those thoughts and fears feel almost supersticious in a way. now even as i write to you i think back and it all seems quite interesting how i was seeing things then, and for so long. Up until my first panic attack (around 18-19), i never knew such feelings existed! it just dropped on me one day.

Yeah, that's one of the reasons i don't like chatting on MSN much, i don't leave the house at all, so i really have nowt to say when people ask what have you been up to, the most exciting thing i can think of is i got up lol It's not ao bad when you chat to people who have SA as well cos basically they're in the same boat as us so they don't judge, just i suck at chatting so i barely go on there lol
Don't put the dating on hold completely, i mean you might meet someone tomorrow and just click with her, keep an open mind. but i know what you mean about being skint and stuff it sucks. I would love to get back to work, just it isn't feasible right now grrrrrrrrr

Well i could use more of the same attitude you have there, even though i haven't experienced terrible anxiety in years. i have been a recluse for quite some time now. I've missed out on ALOT and need to strive to live healthier. My spirirts are up though =)
so i guess in a way that could be SA right or just agoraphobia?

so what's the word mate?

Pretty Boy, wussup mate! thank you man. i think i'm starting to get the hang of this thing. cool

That's what i do as well, even on MSN i never say hi to someone first, i always wait for them to chat to me, i think i do it because i worry that they might be busy and tell me to go away or something lol but yeah in the romantic sense girls do prefer guys to make the first move, you'll be ok...girls aren't all that scary hehe

That sucks
I was so excited for you as well, grrrr at her lol I think you're doing the right thing though, if she's just having fun and not really looking for anything else and you're looking for a relationship, then it's better you found out now before you met her! Maybe you could still be mates with her though

Hiya, how are you doing? are you excited about your date?

Happy birthday mate

Thanks for the add

That's actually a much better idea, you won't feel so self conscious if someone else does it with you as well...plus it will make for a better picture lol
You need to get a bank card or something, that way you get out what you need when you need it, no worrying about bus drivers ripping you off lol so Liverpool really is as bad as i've heard? (kidding hehe)

You totally have to do it next year now! i want to see the pics lol
Bloody bus driver took advantage of you then, he saw how pissed you were and thought woohoo bonus, you deffo need to be more careful, you can't go out with no money...what's the point of that lol

I was going to ask if you went, so no pics then? boooooo lol
How did you lose £20? that must have proper peed you off! I used to hate it when i was out and ran out of money, so losing £20 before i even got started would have done my head in lol
I'm doing good thanks, did nowt this weekend, but that's nothing new hehe

Sorry for the late reply man.I dont always check my page as I dont get a lot of messages on here.Yeah 360's and that are way expensive these days,even the games are 50 quid.But you could get a 2nd hand one for dirt cheap especialy after Chrimbo.Anyway hows it going with your benfits?I live on my own so I have to rely on benfits too and it sucks big time.