Where did I ever go wrong in life? That’s the question that never leaves my mind, the question that I wake up and ask myself every morning, or when something goes wrong in life. Its hard for me to quite remember how I got to be a new person, someone I hate and someone that ruins other peoples lives. I was also happy as I can remember and so positive about life. Little things I care about now used to never bother me or cross my mind about 2 years ago. As the new year slowly approaches I look back at myself and always see that I messed up somewhere, but I wish god can help me find out why? Why did I try to commit suicide 3 times, which landed me in the hospital? Why didn’t I seek any help or deny to family and doctors that I wanted to die?