I've smoked a lot of weed and drank as much alcohol as the average teenager does these days. (perhaps a lot more weed than most actually) But I've found I was relying on the stuff to socialize and to have even a bit of a good time. I could not go without a substance. Now I have a drink or two...
I seem to go in cycle's of not feeling like I am actually myself. I think it is a denial issue that causes this. Lately I've gotten better with this. I also think its been a confidence issue; being unable to decide on doing something for myself because I want to. I hate feeling out of control of...