It's official, I have no friends...

So I had a verbal altercation with what I consider to be the LAST friend I had. The only one who continued to have contact with me even after I pushed everyone else out of my life. What I don't understand is I am not angry, sad, or disheartened by the experience.

But I find myself wondering, is my mind about to cave in on itself? I almost feel numb to the situation. Now that I've reached the tipping point of loneliness, I feel nothing. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up at this point. It would sure as hell beat this pointless existence.

I went through the same thing four years ago. The last friend that I lost contact with was my best friend of nearly a decade. At the time things were strained between us, and I was initially relieved that I was now alone. But that relief has since changed to regret. I cannot foretell what you will go through, I can only offer my experiences. I have spent a lot of time going over the friendships I have had, analyzing them etc. And when I see them on Facebook moving on, I feel empty. I could have been apart of so many people's lives, but I, out of complete idiocy, cut the chord. It has severely curtailed my social development and made my road to recovery all but insurmountable. I hope that you do not take the road that I did. You can still patch up this friendship and build new ones. Once you lose that last link to the outside world, you effectively put a bullet between your own eyes. What you decide to do next is your business, but I strongly urge you not to end up like me. If only I could do things differently, but I can't. And I'll have the rest of my life to think about that.

If it all boils down to having no friends, then maybe you can just move on to work on other areas that you're skilled at. At the very least, that should define your worth.

Look Im going through the same thing and have been since 16. I moved so many times before the age of 16 I felt like I didnt need friends anymore. Thats after the lonelyness kicked in but now Im to the piont now at 22 still living with my parents and that Social Anxiety is ruining my life.

Well, I was in the exact same position as you, probably about two years back, after a major fight with a very close friend, we simply ceased to talk, she was my last friend. I didn't regret it though, because she treated me as a doormat. You should try to salvage the friendship, if you believe there have been good times, try to clear up the misunderstanding. In anyway, I just kind of drift into solitude. Somehow, I managed. I then got into the habit of having one close friend. He was kind of more than a friend, and yet at the same time not a significant other. When he was gone, I just got another one I guess. Sometimes, you have to accept these things, some friendships are just not worth pursuing. In anyway, I wish you good luck, hope you and your friend patches up if you feel he/she is worth it =)

I had a very similar experience to this too. The last 'real' friend I had who I actually felt like I could talk to was my best friend for 5 years, that was 2 yrs ago. It was exactly as you say, I felt numb, almost as if I didn't care. Obviously I cared quite a bit because it made me feel like I was boring, I didn't deserve friends, I was stupid and incompetent. I guess I felt like I couldn't really blame her either because I grew more and more quiet and less sociable (not willing to go to parties, talk to new people etc..) I felt it was a given we would cease to talk.
So, I totally get what you mean. I would love to sleep forever, believe me. But you've got to get up and start life again. I've got this part of my mind that just keeps telling me never to give up. Some days I think, maybe I've already given up. But as long as I still see that ray of hope, corny as it sounds, I'll keep moving forwards. It's just difficult sometimes because it feels as though everyone around me is speeding ahead..

I only have one friend and we dont really go out together,there is this other dude who is really funny,but I dont consider him a friend,I find hard to make friends,it is hard to find a good friend,most guys are still in highschool mind,not saying I am more mature or intelligent,even if they are more than me the talks always boil down to teasing,nicknaming people,going to bordels,would you hit or not,farts,sex and masturbation,sorry not my kind of crowd.

u made me sad reading this. It's nice to have friends but sometimes u gotta move on. I lost my friend (since kindergarten) over $40 measley bucks! It's not worth having a friend who doesn't care bcuz that's not a real friend anyway. Sooo...I suggest to find another one. It may take time but there's many compatible friendships for u!