I think my anxiety is different from everyone else's

I don't what it is exactly, but I panic when I wake up and have nothing to do that day or have no plans. I love being around people and when I am not, I freak out. I am scared to be alone, and living alone this is hard to deal with. Does this happen to anyone else besides me? It's like I have the opposite of social anxiety. I am a shy person, but have been feeling this way for a very long time. When I am out, I feel normal and adequate, but when I am alone, I panic and want to turn to drugs or alcohol to cope, which is not a good thing considering I have had previous addictions that I have dealt with, and I feel myself slipping. Can anyone help me?

Many people with SA really detest being alone but often the fear of being evaluated negatively in social situations wins out. But this doesn't sound like you.
There are other phobia that seem to relate to you more
Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself
Monophobia- Fear of solitude or being alone

However, you do have a concern that many SAers have - self medicating to relieve the intensity of the anxiety.
That we have in common.
and, whereas you have identified that as an issue in your past, it would be a good thing to help with your primary disorder and find out why you have such a strong reaction to being alone and what would be a more appropriate way to cope.

I know some people that are scared to be alone. That's why when they goto break up with someone that have someone new to go out with next. So they aren't ever alone. Seems kinds clingy and dependable upon someone else. *shrugs*

I think it's more common in women. But I'm sure noone ever really wants to die alone. :?