Its not that i just miss LIFE but most of all i feel insecure.....
I know ...its kiddish but..... may be bcoz i have lost many a times, people who i have always wanted to be with ... has made me so.
I dont regret about confessing this to you bcoz i dont know u......
I also feel insecure and irritated by the facts..... that relationships not longlasting....
As if its like .. anytime ,the call may come to part....
Being followed all the time by vicious eyes....
I also feel bad bcoz of guilt....
As i am used to let people go, out of my life to make many others happy...
and ultimately i am the most hurt.....
I do not have true friends....no family beyond my parents and my only daughter....
Neither do i have faith in God, nor i have confidence in me.
I do not like myself.....thats the truth rather!
I am full of negativity....shut from the true freedom,
I cannot do what i love to do... bcoz i am afraid of many things around me and
Now i am unable to spot what i really love to do , is there anything still?
I can only compromise and bring that false smile on my face...
And people take me for granted...as if i am so brave n bold...
Unaffected by all the pain n solitude in my life....
When my past still carves my heart out....
Many a days i feel, if i were dead...
Its better to die than live this stupid life....
I am just a fasle identity....i am something else...
Can you help me to find ME please?
I know ...its kiddish but..... may be bcoz i have lost many a times, people who i have always wanted to be with ... has made me so.
I dont regret about confessing this to you bcoz i dont know u......
I also feel insecure and irritated by the facts..... that relationships not longlasting....
As if its like .. anytime ,the call may come to part....
Being followed all the time by vicious eyes....
I also feel bad bcoz of guilt....
As i am used to let people go, out of my life to make many others happy...
and ultimately i am the most hurt.....
I do not have true friends....no family beyond my parents and my only daughter....
Neither do i have faith in God, nor i have confidence in me.
I do not like myself.....thats the truth rather!
I am full of negativity....shut from the true freedom,
I cannot do what i love to do... bcoz i am afraid of many things around me and
Now i am unable to spot what i really love to do , is there anything still?
I can only compromise and bring that false smile on my face...
And people take me for granted...as if i am so brave n bold...
Unaffected by all the pain n solitude in my life....
When my past still carves my heart out....
Many a days i feel, if i were dead...
Its better to die than live this stupid life....
I am just a fasle identity....i am something else...
Can you help me to find ME please?