How to be positive if you can't even imagine it?

People say " be positive ". What if you are mentally disabled, or physically disabled. Feel pain all the time, are always tired, etc. What if .. you have forgotten what it is to be "ok". What if you don't know what love is, or can't even imagine it? What if you don't know how to visualize or think like this? What if everything you have tried has not worked? What if there seems to be NO solution whatsoever to your main problems of concern, especially that which causes you to feel pain, and to suffer, and feel literally down because THEIR IS ALL CONSUMING PAIN WHICH DOES NOT GO AWAY AND MAKES YOU COMPLETELY INSANE!? It is bothersome. Why can't people think about this? Why can't people think that maybe you are feeling this way for a reason, a credible reason.

Why can't people just think about this first before judging you when you are not being a "positive person"? instead of looking at you with such scorn, making fun of you, calling you names, outcasting you, etc. ultimately leading to no possible progress?

I understand thatone should try to keep things positive for other people's sake. Like taking your child away from things which may corrupt his/her mind. When I feel pain though.. why must I be called names, be labeled as crazy, or be hated for HAVING NERVES which make me act a certain way!? What if I can't hide it? Oh.. the tough adult you are can't even deal with such a positive situation? So why reject me? I don't (or I try not to) reject everything in the world, only that which really bothers me and I should reject?

Oh but I must be a masochist now. I must be an asshole because it's COOL and SEXY to be an ASSHOLE that ultimately doesn't promote progress in this world. Just to get women. Or to get the Universe to listen to me I must be masochist. I can't express feelings. I understand the whole "be positive" thing but a lot of people out there don't even understand it or they use it to just hurt people and make them feel hopeless.

I know.. I must be positive. Maybe there are "souled" human beings on this Earth, who can understand. Or maybe I am just crazy. Or maybe nobody has the capacity to understand me or even truly understand anything..

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I just called to see if I can get CBT. :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol:

I'm just fed up. I'm sorry.

ok.

No1, have you tried:

mindfullness (calming your anxiety, becoming more in tune with your environment) /

CBT (challenging your core beliefs that lie at the heart of SA)

These helped me, I think you would benefit from them (gotta be consistent, and practice daily though)

yeah, what wouldn't be cured with mindfulness or knowledge? I know. But even if I Knew the truth, would that change anything? I would probably just know more now. trust me I do try to be mindful.... or I do "my best" because I hate saying try, for the word "try" is no longer any good.