terrified
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i have been married for 9 years and we have been together for 10 years. We have 8 and 5 years old boys.
I went to doctor's office with my husband for allergy test for him and myself this Friday. The place was crowded and I felt noticeably anxious. My husband ignored me whole time and he was nicer to the receptionist than to me.
I tried to forget about it because he is usually supportive. I noticed that recently he is completely annoyed by me and has given up that I'll ever be better.
This Saturday, our older son wanted my husband to take him to Doughnut shop. My husband was still in sleep. I asked my son if he wanted me to take him and he said that he prefers daddy to take him. He favors his dad for several reasons including my social phobia. My husband glows instead of helping the situation. I talk to him about that so many times but I don't know if he is even aware he is doing it. I was hurt by that. The funny thing is that we do better when he goes out of town for business trips.
Anyhow when I was getting ready to go with them, my husband said, "you should sleep some more." Clearly he didn't want me going with him. My son asked why I'm not coming and I said, "Daddy doesn't want me to come." Maybe I shouldn't have said that but I was angry.
I stayed by myself on Saturday morning and that afternoon he wanted me to watch the kids so that he could go watch James Bond Movie himself. My older son ended up going to his friend's house and my younger son stayed with me.
I ended up doing some art works with him and tried really hard to not take it out on him. Around 9pm, he calls me to pick him from a mall. I did it because I didn't want to fight in front of my children. I hate him but then I question whether he has right to do that after dealing with 10 years of my SP.
The irony is that I would probably have left him awhile ago if it wasn't for my SP. I have not worked for last 9 years and I'm still very agrophobic. I'm currently in school and I need 3 more years to finish my degree.
I would like some objective views. Thanks.
I went to doctor's office with my husband for allergy test for him and myself this Friday. The place was crowded and I felt noticeably anxious. My husband ignored me whole time and he was nicer to the receptionist than to me.
I tried to forget about it because he is usually supportive. I noticed that recently he is completely annoyed by me and has given up that I'll ever be better.
This Saturday, our older son wanted my husband to take him to Doughnut shop. My husband was still in sleep. I asked my son if he wanted me to take him and he said that he prefers daddy to take him. He favors his dad for several reasons including my social phobia. My husband glows instead of helping the situation. I talk to him about that so many times but I don't know if he is even aware he is doing it. I was hurt by that. The funny thing is that we do better when he goes out of town for business trips.
Anyhow when I was getting ready to go with them, my husband said, "you should sleep some more." Clearly he didn't want me going with him. My son asked why I'm not coming and I said, "Daddy doesn't want me to come." Maybe I shouldn't have said that but I was angry.
I stayed by myself on Saturday morning and that afternoon he wanted me to watch the kids so that he could go watch James Bond Movie himself. My older son ended up going to his friend's house and my younger son stayed with me.
I ended up doing some art works with him and tried really hard to not take it out on him. Around 9pm, he calls me to pick him from a mall. I did it because I didn't want to fight in front of my children. I hate him but then I question whether he has right to do that after dealing with 10 years of my SP.
The irony is that I would probably have left him awhile ago if it wasn't for my SP. I have not worked for last 9 years and I'm still very agrophobic. I'm currently in school and I need 3 more years to finish my degree.
I would like some objective views. Thanks.