whats the point of going out by myself?

[no1]

Well.. I could only really go out by myself if I have something to do.

I feel like though if I go out the way most people do, to "have fun" or whatever they do.. I feel like all I'll do is walk around in circles, or stand around by myself, or sit aroudn by myself, moving from place to place because I can't just sit somewhere for too long.. try to talk to some people and then end up being disliked by them.
I'll be the f*cking loner standing off in the corner watching everyone with a slightly mad look.

I'll be twitching or twiddling my thumbs. or trying to hold me neck still when something catches my eye.

I have the next 2 weeks off and I dont know what to do, and if I will go batshit crazy. I can take a vacation but I'll do the same thing as I stated above, of course TRYING to actually do somehting but it wouldn't work for me, beccause I'm not like everyone.

I feel like.. if I try.. I'll go crazy. I might just start crying in public. maybe even destroying things, or myself. maybe dress up like a bum and sleep out on the street.

what if I beg for a friend out on the street? How ABSURD that sounds. if I go take a walk I might break down.

I feel like maybe I should just go somewhere to some nature setting, maybe go off in the woods, and stay there and starve myself or try to survive in the wild. maybe nature, the animals and the trees and the sun can be my friend.

I also have NOTHING in common with ANYONE! not even my own humanity.

edit: I am pretty convinced I am really unable to socialize and that I might even be or become a danger to this society, and to people in general or that all I do is wrong.

 

[weak]

I know how you feel.

Life's supposed to be like a roller coaster and its not meant to be ridden alone.

But my life... well... I feel like I got stuck on a 1 seater carousel.

 

[dan_e]

I feel like.. if I try.. I'll go crazy. I might just start crying in public.

That's how I feel too. For example, I want to move out but anymore I feel sick about actually doing it. Literally sick, and also like I'll just have a complete meltdown like you mentioned above. I'd like to move in with friends so I won't feel so alone, or at least having some friends around. I feel like it would take the edge off.

what if I beg for a friend out on the street? How ABSURD that sounds.

I've thought about something like that. What if you could pay someone to be your friend. There was a movie I can't remember the name (Can't Buy Me Love maybe?), but the guy bought himself some friends.

 

[lettypagb]

,i thought i was the only one ,

well the point in going out in clubs is that you can get really drunk ,and met other drunk peoples

 

[marciaX3]

I've thought about something like that. What if you could pay someone to be your friend. There was a movie I can't remember the name (Can't Buy Me Love maybe?), but the guy bought himself some friends.

"Cant Buy Me Love" is a movie from the 80's (remake a few years ago) where a geeky guy paid the popular girl $1000 to pretend to be his girlfriend so he could become popular with the popular kids too. So if that's what you're thinking of, then yeah you had the right movie.