monkeyisland90
Active member
Do you ever build yourself up spiritually, emotionally, physically, mentally (through books, right thinking, working out, eating right, praying, church etc...) only to be taken away instantly when some social situation happens and you feel like it never changed you then feel totally hopeless cause you've tried everything you had and it still wasn't enough... makes me upset and mad that the "normal" people don't have to really take drastic measures in building themselves up and still go out with a bang and blend right in...
Also, its frustrating that i build myself for weeks, months and then meet someone for like 3-4 minutes (in this case it was a guy i knew growing up with his new wife which i didn't know) unexpectandly and bam all my anxieties just came out with full force and feel all that building up was a joke and i'm totally helpless.. But after day or two... i don't want to be negative and keep having self pity or feel hopless and go about building myself up again.... I think one thing i don't lack is not giving up... which keeps me fighting always but the same scenario repeats over and over and afraid that it's gonna make me snap and go do something crazy and land me in jail or something..
Also, its frustrating that i build myself for weeks, months and then meet someone for like 3-4 minutes (in this case it was a guy i knew growing up with his new wife which i didn't know) unexpectandly and bam all my anxieties just came out with full force and feel all that building up was a joke and i'm totally helpless.. But after day or two... i don't want to be negative and keep having self pity or feel hopless and go about building myself up again.... I think one thing i don't lack is not giving up... which keeps me fighting always but the same scenario repeats over and over and afraid that it's gonna make me snap and go do something crazy and land me in jail or something..