CBT - OCD, where do I begin?

Ok, scuse my french but !@#$ this...

Im sick of OCD so I want to get rid of it, I figure, until I can get back to my psychologist, which could be anywhere froma few days to a week, I might start CBT and Behavioral therapy myself.


What do I do? I've read brief snippets on the forum but cant quite figure out what it all is.

I have a fear of harming others - that is my main fear. However, during the heigh of my anxiety, thinking of a cardboard box can make me nervous (lol)

I was thinking on doing writing a list of things I want to do tommorow
Buy chamomile tea
clean my mums car
sort out my homework
etc.

This will give me a foundation to work with for the day...

Now, I was also thinking on just googling serial killer and reading articles about it until my anxiety pisses off, but I thought that might not be the right thing to do....

I also thought, Im going to act happy, even if it's fake happy, im going to smile and pretend im having fun to retrain my brain so to speak...Im on 2 weeks holiday now so I can afford the time.


So, can you guys tell me anything? Im 15, turning 16 soon...

I can tell u that with the proper medication, theraoy will come by itself, u are young.. I'm 17, my ocd ended a year ago, most of it, now its mostly SA related and perfectionism
SO, solution: ur afraid of killing ppl, dunno if ur ready, cuz i was on meds doing this.. take somethinglethal near someone u love, like in a metre away from that perosn, u shall see nothing will hapone..
EXPLANATION: the brain has irrational thoughts thta will continue and continue , and result in comoulsions untill u make the brain believe differently
each time u expose urself, ur making ur brain believe differently..
I think u'll be fine
it could be an adolescent thing, and when I say adlescent, dnt think i dont mean the real ocd symptoms, but just not somehting lthatll be life long..

I am fully prepared to accept it as life long, I hope it isn't, and I will try and beat it but I understand that *quote* I am more sensitive to anxiety as my psychologist said.

ACtually, I think I already have a victory...My dad was watching a show about muslim extremists, I wont go into detail but basicaly I got the thought, what if I become an extremist and make home amde bombs and blow up people. However, I tried my best not to ruminate, I sat there watching it for a few minutes until I couldn't handle it and left, but I kept fighting it, I was watching my movie in my room, had the door open so dads show was in the backround...about 2-3 hours later, the anxiety from that specific thing is 98% gone...

LockieKermit said:

I am fully prepared to accept it as life long, I hope it isn't, and I will try and beat it but I understand that *quote* I am more sensitive to anxiety as my psychologist said.

ACtually, I think I already have a victory...My dad was watching a show about muslim extremists, I wont go into detail but basicaly I got the thought, what if I become an extremist and make home amde bombs and blow up people. However, I tried my best not to ruminate, I sat there watching it for a few minutes until I couldn't handle it and left, but I kept fighting it, I was watching my movie in my room, had the door open so dads show was in the backround...about 2-3 hours later, the anxiety from that specific thing is 98% gone...

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great! and dont acceot it as life long, ull have small ocd tendencies, but nothing like right now

Thanks, I really appreciate this forum, good guys the lot of you... I almost feel this new strength..it's weird, like I have a list of things im going to do tommorow that I wrote down before just to help me and give me a plan, and im comfronting my anxiety at every chance I get, I almost feel like I have the power..if you know what I mean