no1
Banned
I dont know what is so intimidating about it. maybe it's the fact that I think there is nothing outside for me... like there's no use in going outside. I wont meet anyone new, I dont know how to start conversations with just anyone, and what about? I haven't even tried making random conversation with anyone. What am I going to do? stand around my apartment? walk around pointlessly? look like an idiot. I know if I start doing this everyday people are going to wonder why I am so alone... then leave me alone because they don't want to be around a lonely person. I feel lonely outside. scared... like a f*cking chump.
Dont get me wrong, I've gone outside before.. but only when I have something to do , or something like an argument with my father pushes me out and I dont give a flying F*. but why do I have to go outside in such a condition? I can't just go outside for no good reason! ok maybe I'm going outside with the wrong mindset. So which mindset should I be in? I don't go to cafe's around here. I'm, a vegetarian. I dont go to the recreational parks around here.. I dont play sports. Sometimes I feel like running at the track.. it's usually very lonely there. I'm not interested in ANYTHING others are! Also nobody would like me I guess...
FU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dont get me wrong, I've gone outside before.. but only when I have something to do , or something like an argument with my father pushes me out and I dont give a flying F*. but why do I have to go outside in such a condition? I can't just go outside for no good reason! ok maybe I'm going outside with the wrong mindset. So which mindset should I be in? I don't go to cafe's around here. I'm, a vegetarian. I dont go to the recreational parks around here.. I dont play sports. Sometimes I feel like running at the track.. it's usually very lonely there. I'm not interested in ANYTHING others are! Also nobody would like me I guess...
FU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!