Bullied and still am

I know it won't help to write what happened but some times it is nice to say I am not a freak. I was bullied from grade two ( I moved alot) to five when I moved away because of it. When i came back due to bullying by a parent I found out that some people had said they were glad I was gone. I tried to forget what happened you a fresh start. It worked until I realized no one would talk to me besides my only friend. Once an awhile the old bullies would try but by now I figured out how to make them stop, no problem. Later on though with jr, and sr, high my Step mother be came the bully. She would tell me how I distoried everyones lives, and at times I believed her. My dad didn't help he only said that it was my problem and I should get over it. Now I won't see my dad I refuse to go into their house. One thing is for over ten years I have had only one friend, and people truly wonder why I am nervous and scared, basicly the way I am. Another thing that people get wrong is they think I am a push over, but most find out quickly I am not and won't take anyones word unless I got a seriously good reason to. I gained a temper, and an anitsocial life, but isn't what I want. That is my story.

Hi.

Try very hard not to think about the past, except to learn from it and move on. When we think too hard about past failures, we feel self-conscious and nervous and insecure, and that's what makes it so difficult to socialize with people now. If we could feel confident and secure and generally think positive, we'd have much better success.