Every second everyday regardless of where I am I am terrified of something. When I'm at home I am terrified of chemicals. My father does so much renovation and he's always painting something and I am worried I'll breath in toxins, or get paint on me that will seep into my skin, if it's on my hands I will touch my pets and my pets will then consume paint. So I always look at my hands and inspect myself, but I doubt my eyes so I do not believe it when I see nothing there. I wish I could jump into the shower and cleanse myself but I cannot because my family notices and thinks I'm crazy. Once when washing a piece of spinach to feed to my birds it took like 10 minutes because I was trying to wash off everything toxic. Who knows what and who touched the spinach while at the store. While at school I am constantly afraid of something happening. There are 1000 kids at school and who knows what horrible things they could be planting. I always keep a close watch on my backpack because I am afraid that someone will put something dangerous into it. I keep close eye on my water bottle in case someone drugs it. After school I check my hood to make sure no one put anything in it. But at the same time I do not trust my eyes so it doesn't help my fear. I hate every single human being on Earth except for people with OCD like me and some family members. I am terrified of people. When my friends say they are worried about a test I cannot even comprehend it because my worries are that my pets will be drugged ay minute ad killed. I don't actually place much value on my life, I only worry so much about myself because if something bad happens to me, my pets will die. My family probably would't give a shit to take care of my pets if I died.
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