missblueyes123
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I was hit hard by depression a couple of years ago as a tenth grader. I've never gotten out of my depression, but learned to deal with it somewhat. In the last year I have developed terrible social anxiety. My main issues are being at larger social events. I went to one dance and it was terrible. I can't just dance...I freak out in fear people are all looking at me and that everyone else is dancing better. The friends I am occasionally around like to drink and smoke pot. I think it'd be fun to try and I wish I would, but I get extremely nervous when given the opportunity and freak out and usually leave. I guess I'm just afraid of looking stupid. I don't know how to smoke or anything. The worst part is I always get extremely down on myself for not trying things like dancing or pot. My last major issue seems to be around other girls and guys. Around guys I'm a little more comfortable, but when girls come around I freak out that all the guys like them better. I've been talked into going on a trip and I will be meeting a lot of new people and have a lot of new things to try. I need help!!! Does anyone else have similar feelings?