acting

anyone here feel that there whole life is just an act and you can never really relax like you are at home. Just feel wherever i go (grocery, school, gym, tennis, church, anywhere in public..) always have to
So all this acting hasn't done any good but make me even more confused.. Sure it has helped me survive the real world at times and feel bit normal at times... but it has hurt me more then help me as i've been living a big lie....

i'll get award for the social anxiety oscar....

I hate the actors in this world. Most of the people I consider normal are actors. I don't let others decide what I'm going to do, no matter how offended they may get.

For example, I hate fashion trends. I cannot stand seeing these kids, or even grown adults wearing trendy clothes because it's a blatant --yet directly ignored-- act.

You think these black clowns who wear the bright, plaid shorts to their ankles like that shit? No, they do it to put on an act. For NORMAL people, life's one big act.

Normal people will do anything to look good, popular, or what they THINK is normal, at any given situation.

Freaks like me, on the other hand, only do things the way they want to, because it's not only self-pleasing, real, and natural, but it also called not living a lie.

I sure as hell complain about my anxiety a lot, but I'd much rather live a truthful life than a big act of a lie.

Try it sometime.

PJS said:

Freaks like me, on the other hand, only do things the way they want to, because it's not only self-pleasing, real, and natural, but it also called not living a lie.

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When I was a kid I always tried to fit in, put on an act, tried to be popular and cool and whatnt, and was devastated because I just couldn't.
Then, I discovered, becoming older, that I maybe couldn't be one of these popular kids, but I could be my own person, that I could do whatever the hell I wanted, wear what I wanted to, dye my hair the color I liked, I didn't have to be at a party every other day or wear trendy clothes, and I also discovered that I didn't even want to. I don't have to act, and I don't want to, and if people don't like me that way, well, you don't have to be liked by everyone. It's tough at times but you get to be your own person. And if being liked is important to you - a lot of people dislike those who try to be someone else, and instead appreciate someone being their own person and not giving a shit about popularity.

What do you think would happen/how would you behave if you didn't act?