A "normal childhood" in the eyes of a not-so-normal child

I'm not an expert writer or anything...but I just thought, for myself, that I would write a short story detailing how I was an oversensitive kid with special needs that were NOT addressed by my family. They just treated me like any "normal" kid. So here it goes:

I didn't do it for attention. I SWEAR I didn't do it for attention. I thought he was going to do something bad. I thought he was going to hit me.

But hitting people isn't bad, right? It's what my brother does all the time. My mom once hit me once.

Speaking about my mom, I HATE playing the piano in front of her. I'm just so nervous about everything! About making mistakes, about having the right music on the stand, everything! And when I do make mistakes, I cry. But what does mommy do? She sits there, and thinks I'm WEAK. Yes, she called me weak. She asked me why I was crying. She asked me if I cry all the time.

Why was dad so angry when I wet my pants? Did he hit me? I can't tell. All I remember is me crying.

Why is dear brother so hurtful? Why does he tell me to go away at school, and why does he call me stupid? Why does he tell me to shut up in public? Why?

Don't feel so bad, mom. Don't feel so bad, dad. Don't feel so bad, my dear brother. You all had a part in making me who I am today.

Interesting story. I feel like I've seen you before on the other forum I venture around on. Though I am not sure if I you are that person or not. Either way it does not matter.

For some reason I feel you when it comes to the siblings. My sister didn't want me to really be around her at school. I think it's like that with a lot of siblings. I don't really understand why that is though. Is it because I embarrass her?

I also remember having a wetting accident at school. I was too SA to ask to go the bathroom so I just pissed my pants. Bad times.

Also that performance anxiety can be pretty mind wracking. I agree with that.

I'm not too sure what your definition of this story is but that I what I got out of it.

Nah, this is my first time on this forum. Then again, there are approximately 7 billion people on this planet, so the chances of me having the same experiences as someone else are high.

I agree, performance anxiety was HELL for me. My mother was a piano teacher, so of course she wanted me to take part in music as well. I think it was too soon...

By the way, I'm worried that my mother's parenting screwed me up. She used to give me some extra piano lessons, and I was just SO nervous about making mistakes in front of her. When I did make mistakes, I would start crying. My mother would belittle me and say things like "Do you cry all the time? Why are you crying?" etc etc etc. One time we ended up having a HUGE fight, and I almost ran away from home because of it.

Nowadays, I have a HUGE hatred of authority figures. I have targeted specific people whose lives I want to destroy. For instance, I noticed that my former music teacher sometimes acts like my mother. Well, I am going to report his ***, and get him fired in the hopes of saving other difficult, oversensitive kids from going through what I went through.

I should get a medal, really.