A new time to vent

Hello everyone, for anyone that might remember me I decided to come back on tonight, been a while. Depressed again, was doing a lot better but life is encroaching again.

I am back at college, after an incident where I totally broke down and had to leave. Sadly this is the last chance kind of thing for me, if I mess up again I will most likely get kicked out and then owe tons of money, and sadly I am not doing the best again. I have been doing more work then I have in a long time, and though I am sort of keeping up, it is getting to me. I am currently pretty much failing my classes, and the stress of it all is getting to me again.

Tonight is possibly the first night in like 1-2 months I am truly depressed again, though I can say I realized I was falling that way again.

In the end I am just mainly venting again, tonight my roommate was trying to get me to go to the bars, I did for a moment, but of course I never fit in there, and came back here.

It is so annoying, I realize I have issues and that it causes me to mess up in college, but I am trying, I have made it quite far, if it has taken me longer then others oh well, but sadly that isn't what is seen. Instead I get in trouble for not being able to keep up with the workloads, I get in massive debt, etc. SIGH

Hi Tempus35 - Are you seeking help for your depression? Are you supported at college with your issues?

Where I am, students with anxiety problems can get help from support services; workloads would be altered and no 'last chances' set.

Hmm well I have help from disabilities here, and there is a counseling service, but yea I have issues with asking for help, so I it takes a long time to get it. And for the first question, yes I have seeked help multiple times. I can handle quite well, but the underlying issues are solved and wont be easily, is it comes back every once in a while.

Maybe organise a regular session at college with a councellor to discuss how you are going? They could then coordinate with teachers etc. and ease the pressure at college and help with the depression.

token_asian_friend said:

If I can give one bit of advice: don't put so much pressure on yourself. This isn't your last chance by any stretch, and that kind of thinking will only make things exponentially tougher for you.

Trust me. I've been there, and I know what I'm talking about. Think the best, but plan for the worst (vs think the worst and don't plan). It's a good mantra.

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exactly - there is no "ONE RIGHT WAY" that life has to follow - and, in fact, it rarely follows the path you expect it to or try to make it

you can always start over - whenever or wherever you choose, as many times as you want to

seriously - this isn't something that's just made up to make people feel better after they've failed at the standard "school-college-career-family-retirement" track

even for the people who have managed to succeed at staying on that track - most of their lives did not happen the way they thought it would

it never does