da_illest101
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How was your 2011?
For me it was the worse year in my life here is the good and bad part
good: I'm alive, everybody that I know is alive as well
bad part:
towards the end of 2010 my friendship with one of my best friend was going downhill and somewhere in 2011 it ended not in the way I would have like it to end, but it did. I was wondering why it even happen in the first place. Now I do get it and it sure as hell didn't make things any easier to take.
The rest of the year everything felt boring as my depression keep getting worse and worse. I hated my job since day one ( 4 years ago) and I'm still working there till this day. I hate the work even if I barely getting any hours. Financially i'm not surviving, yet i'm not even taking other people's shift when they ask me too.
At school I was seperated from my friends for 4 classes out of 6, it was really boring and I felt like an outcast with the group I was in. This what the third semester in the program and I haven't met pretty much anyone of the group I was in. So I just spent most of the time alone pretending everything was fine. Even though my schedule for next semester sucks I'm with my friends. I also found out that my ultimate crush ( as my friends love to call her) has a bf, it felt like someone stab multiple times to the heart.
In the summer I had intercourse for the first time which freaked the crap out of me. To make matter worse, like an idiot, I didn't use any protection even if the girl was on the pill. It's been 5 months since and even though she told me she is 1000% sure that she is not pregnant, until it reach 10 to 11 months I won't be able to stop stressing about it. I'm freaking out to the very sight of anything baby related and reading the stories about people having no sign that they were pregnant before giving birth sure didn't help me one bit.
also in the summer I injured my neck bad enough that it makes the whole right side of my body numb. When I say the whole right side I really mean every single part of my body that is on the right side with no exception. It is the most annoying feeling ever. At least I still appear like i'm 100% even though i'm not. I can still do normal task, but can't stand up for long periods of time. I did x rays and MRI for it and will begin oestheopathy therapy for it tomorrow.
I'm not the type of person who thinks that things get magically better with the new upcoming year nor do I believe in the whole new year resolution thing either. The calendar may end, but life continues the same way it did. I do hope things get better.
So how was yours? hopefully better than mine
For me it was the worse year in my life here is the good and bad part
good: I'm alive, everybody that I know is alive as well
bad part:
towards the end of 2010 my friendship with one of my best friend was going downhill and somewhere in 2011 it ended not in the way I would have like it to end, but it did. I was wondering why it even happen in the first place. Now I do get it and it sure as hell didn't make things any easier to take.
The rest of the year everything felt boring as my depression keep getting worse and worse. I hated my job since day one ( 4 years ago) and I'm still working there till this day. I hate the work even if I barely getting any hours. Financially i'm not surviving, yet i'm not even taking other people's shift when they ask me too.
At school I was seperated from my friends for 4 classes out of 6, it was really boring and I felt like an outcast with the group I was in. This what the third semester in the program and I haven't met pretty much anyone of the group I was in. So I just spent most of the time alone pretending everything was fine. Even though my schedule for next semester sucks I'm with my friends. I also found out that my ultimate crush ( as my friends love to call her) has a bf, it felt like someone stab multiple times to the heart.
In the summer I had intercourse for the first time which freaked the crap out of me. To make matter worse, like an idiot, I didn't use any protection even if the girl was on the pill. It's been 5 months since and even though she told me she is 1000% sure that she is not pregnant, until it reach 10 to 11 months I won't be able to stop stressing about it. I'm freaking out to the very sight of anything baby related and reading the stories about people having no sign that they were pregnant before giving birth sure didn't help me one bit.
also in the summer I injured my neck bad enough that it makes the whole right side of my body numb. When I say the whole right side I really mean every single part of my body that is on the right side with no exception. It is the most annoying feeling ever. At least I still appear like i'm 100% even though i'm not. I can still do normal task, but can't stand up for long periods of time. I did x rays and MRI for it and will begin oestheopathy therapy for it tomorrow.
I'm not the type of person who thinks that things get magically better with the new upcoming year nor do I believe in the whole new year resolution thing either. The calendar may end, but life continues the same way it did. I do hope things get better.
So how was yours? hopefully better than mine