michael1993
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I don't understand why I have OCD but I've had it for 3 or 4 years now. I have a great family, I'm intelligent, and I play sports but for some reason when I'm alone OCD takes over. It controls all areas of my life such as diet, exercise, and games.
First I'll explain about my diet. I am in no way fat but whenever I eat something that is not part of my meals, even something small like a piece of gum, I just go on a binge eating tons of junk food and become disgusted with myself.
Another area where it effects me is gaming and the internet in general. When playing a game I feel that I have to do everything perfectly and if I mess up then I start over. I don't just mean mess up as in die or lose match, but mess up as in I hit the wrong button or click the wrong thing.
I find myself starting over and over, countless times, on games that I used to love and enjoy. When I join a forum if I scroll around to much or something minor like that, I create a new email adress and register again. I have created probably over 100 accounts on several forums and online games without ever accomplishing anything.
It also effects my powerlifting routine but I am learning to get over that because even if I start a new routine, I can not restart my body.
Whenever I give into OCD behavior I just think to myself that I'll start fresh tomorrow and do everything perfectly and it will be cured, but obviously that never works and thus I am constantly afflicted.
Taking showers, brushing my teeth, and handwashing also help to make me feel better.
I have heard people say that the best way to conquer OCD is to face it head on and not give in to the rituals but I find this so hard to do. I used to be so happy and enjoyed life so much but now I am in the constant misery of starting over.
If you guys have any advice that will help me to overcome this, I beg you please share.
First I'll explain about my diet. I am in no way fat but whenever I eat something that is not part of my meals, even something small like a piece of gum, I just go on a binge eating tons of junk food and become disgusted with myself.
Another area where it effects me is gaming and the internet in general. When playing a game I feel that I have to do everything perfectly and if I mess up then I start over. I don't just mean mess up as in die or lose match, but mess up as in I hit the wrong button or click the wrong thing.
I find myself starting over and over, countless times, on games that I used to love and enjoy. When I join a forum if I scroll around to much or something minor like that, I create a new email adress and register again. I have created probably over 100 accounts on several forums and online games without ever accomplishing anything.
It also effects my powerlifting routine but I am learning to get over that because even if I start a new routine, I can not restart my body.
Whenever I give into OCD behavior I just think to myself that I'll start fresh tomorrow and do everything perfectly and it will be cured, but obviously that never works and thus I am constantly afflicted.
Taking showers, brushing my teeth, and handwashing also help to make me feel better.
I have heard people say that the best way to conquer OCD is to face it head on and not give in to the rituals but I find this so hard to do. I used to be so happy and enjoyed life so much but now I am in the constant misery of starting over.
If you guys have any advice that will help me to overcome this, I beg you please share.