txjeepin
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OK, so I am at college. I sufffer from ocd, anxiety, and SAD. I also have that BRG or BRD or whatever the abbreviations are for the body anxiety disorder. this is all diagnosed by my psychologist, not self-diagnosed.
At my school, people tend to do that stupid *****ing hand shake thing, you know, the "cool" way to shake hands where you do somethin fancy and shit. I am horrible at this crap. I hate it because I am no good at it! It just makes things akward and unbearable to have a conversation after you 'do the do'. plus I am just a little white kid (no offense).
I usually mess it up, or just do a regular hand shake and creep the people out. Thing is, I don't really want to touch someone's hand in the first place unless it is a formal introduction. Anyway, it is just frustrating. I hope you all know what I am talking about....if not Ill try to explain.
Today was just a really bad day for me. I feel like I cannot connect with anyone around me, even my family. I feel alone and the ONE person that I feel I can talk to is quite frankly tired of me, and my psychologist told me to not interact with her anymore. What is weird is my psychologist tells me to not talk to anyone that I currently know (i have told him about them and what they are like, he thinks they are the wrong people for me.
I know no one, and the few that I do know Im not supposed to know. I am getting really depressed because I just moved into college and I am finding it hard to adjusting. Sometimes I just want to end it all, but am afraid of suicide. I just wish I knew what was in the after life and what the consequences were for suicide. If there were none I would do it, cause I failed at living in this society.
now I know why some people are homeless. will that be me?
At my school, people tend to do that stupid *****ing hand shake thing, you know, the "cool" way to shake hands where you do somethin fancy and shit. I am horrible at this crap. I hate it because I am no good at it! It just makes things akward and unbearable to have a conversation after you 'do the do'. plus I am just a little white kid (no offense).
I usually mess it up, or just do a regular hand shake and creep the people out. Thing is, I don't really want to touch someone's hand in the first place unless it is a formal introduction. Anyway, it is just frustrating. I hope you all know what I am talking about....if not Ill try to explain.
Today was just a really bad day for me. I feel like I cannot connect with anyone around me, even my family. I feel alone and the ONE person that I feel I can talk to is quite frankly tired of me, and my psychologist told me to not interact with her anymore. What is weird is my psychologist tells me to not talk to anyone that I currently know (i have told him about them and what they are like, he thinks they are the wrong people for me.
I know no one, and the few that I do know Im not supposed to know. I am getting really depressed because I just moved into college and I am finding it hard to adjusting. Sometimes I just want to end it all, but am afraid of suicide. I just wish I knew what was in the after life and what the consequences were for suicide. If there were none I would do it, cause I failed at living in this society.
now I know why some people are homeless. will that be me?