It sounds like you might have depression if you find it hard to get out of bed. You say you want a normal life but staying indoors isn't going to help. Have you thought about seeing your doctor and getting some kind of therapy? Surely you can't be happy hiding away from the outside world? Don't your parents think it's strange that you don't go out? I'm sure they'd help you.
I know I have depression that's for sure .. I feel better hiding from the world just hate being out .. just feel everyone is judging me .. doctors just put me on meds that send me up the wall and I mean nutters it would scare u what I did when the NHS take me the wrong meds .. counselling they just wanna talk about the past and once I go home for them its over but for me its just the start mind racing going over and over about everything
mother .. she never really been out going she goes work clubs holidays she don't care as all her kids has turned out not as out going as the next family maybe its the way you are brought up the family your in
my sister 35 still at home
My brother 28 still at home
Me 24 in May still home
My 20 sister has flat baby boyfriend
dreams to join the legion then off to oz to live by the beach .. but don't enjoy going out and doing the normal life ... Going out being judged looking like a dick shaking feel sick talking to strangers
Never doing take meds again that make keep me awake all night writing on widows or cutting up my arm and using that to write on the wall or being nicked by the police for shouting screaming swearing at 4am I'm very quiet very quiet I was given a letter saying sorry as I was giving the wrong meds
Not going counselling again as they just wanna talk about the past all the time
I don't like going out by myself
sadly my mum is getting old and she not going be around forever maybe I need somone to come and hold my hand show me the ropes ... But how do I stop myself from feeling sick feeling like a dick feeling I am being judged all the time I am out of the house
If I can stop thinking that in my head .. then I can do anything
Much love
Ukmale