dnc9119
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Please help me.. I need reassurance or something.. I have been with my boyfriend for a year and a half.. Up until i met him my life was crap.. During my childhood my parents went through a terrible, TERRIBLE divorce and i've had OCD ever since then.. I love my boyfriend so much, with every ounce in my body he's the most amazing person and he treats me great. I have relationship ocd i think, i have thoughts that make me feel extremely guilty.. Random stupid thoughts that I know really mean nothing to me, yet i still feel extremely guilty when i have them.. for example i have random stupid thoughts about having sex with other people, or being with other people when i would NEVER, EVER do that.. I would rather die instead of be with anyone else.. I also have random thoughts about this idiot who I wouldn't even call an ex boyfriend, more like someone who used me for sex.. And that makes me feel extremely guilty, that is probably the worse out of everything.. It tells me all sorts of thoughts about that.. I don't know why I have these thoughts about them, I don't care about that person at all.. I have to do crazy things whenever i have these thoughts I have to do the crazy "ocd rituals". I hate feeling guilty like this, but it's just because i love him so much that I think these stupid things right? They don't mean anything right? It's just part of the ocd to feel guilty isn't it?