hi iam a 27 year old mixed race woman from maidstone kent and ive had social anxiety since i was 11 made worse by being bullied every day at school.I left school at 16 and i was unable to leave the house for years after because i felt embarrassed,ugly and humiliated and i just wanted to disappear, when i did leave the house when people spoke to me or saw me they would say i came across aggressive which made it worse and made me reluctant to ever talk to anyone at all.I got a job at 23 at a nursery its very long hours and is very stressful ive worked there for 4 years but haven't really made any friends partly because iam so self conscious i dont really know how to carry myself when iam around people. I have cried myself to sleep every night since i was 16 because even though i still live at home with my mum, stepdad and stepsister i have no friends and have never had a boyfriend and the loneliness is killing me .ive been on fluoxitine and every anti- depessiant there is but they've done nothin for me .I had no idea s.a.d existed i only found out i had it when i searched google for my symptoms it was such a relief and to find out other people have this condition made me feel so much better about myself.