So i've been bullied my entire highschool time by 2 girls. Now even after graduation from college I'm still struggling with a horrendous anxiety and OCD. One of these girls sent me a friend request on facebook 2 months ago. A couple of days ago, one night, after reading some frightening stuff about the long-term consequences of being bullied, I've impulsively and maybe reckelessly sent her a message in which I told her that I wish smth terrible happen to her. Now that I'm soberer, I'm having again some strong anxiety simptoms and I wonder if what I've done was reckless or not. What do you guys think?