SickCycleCarousel
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I met this guy on World of Warcraft last October. We talk pretty much every day and I think I'm in love with him.
The first few months we chatted I was very flirtatious with him. A couple months ago I had a dream that was being too affectionate with him. Sometimes we can go an hour or so without saying anything (as we're playing the game we're concentrating on whatever we're doing). So to let him know I'm thinking about him I will whisper him and give him "hugs" or <3s or "kisses" or whatever and he would do it back.
Since I had that dream I have been holding back a lot. I'm not as affectionate and I try not to let him know I love him as much as I used to. I feel like that dream was a sign...like he was trying to tell me it was all too much for him.
But then he asked me recently why I don't talk to him like I used to. I didn't know what to say...I didn't want to say that it's because I don't know if he really loves me like he says he does...I don't want to be flirty and affectionate to someone who only sees me as a friend or bed-buddy. (I know we're just talking online and it would be different if we were face-to-face, but it's all the same to me).
So things between us have been a bit stale. Then I have a dream the other night that he was falling out of love with me.
I don't know if the dreams are just my worries and it's all in my head or if it's real. Maybe it is real...I'm chasing after something/someone I can never have (we live in different countries after all).
A part of me feels that I should just go with it and enjoy our friendship and continue loving him as a friend until it's over..Another part of me wants to end it very soon because I am falling for him and I don't want to get hurt.
I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm crazy for liking him and I feel like I'm crazy because I am taking these dreams as signs.
I wish I could go back to the days when I didn't question our friendship. I hate that I'm over-analyzing everything.
I feel like such a mess. I'm lost and so confused.
By the way, I'm not entirely sure if this belongs in this category..I apologize if it doesn't.
The first few months we chatted I was very flirtatious with him. A couple months ago I had a dream that was being too affectionate with him. Sometimes we can go an hour or so without saying anything (as we're playing the game we're concentrating on whatever we're doing). So to let him know I'm thinking about him I will whisper him and give him "hugs" or <3s or "kisses" or whatever and he would do it back.
Since I had that dream I have been holding back a lot. I'm not as affectionate and I try not to let him know I love him as much as I used to. I feel like that dream was a sign...like he was trying to tell me it was all too much for him.
But then he asked me recently why I don't talk to him like I used to. I didn't know what to say...I didn't want to say that it's because I don't know if he really loves me like he says he does...I don't want to be flirty and affectionate to someone who only sees me as a friend or bed-buddy. (I know we're just talking online and it would be different if we were face-to-face, but it's all the same to me).
So things between us have been a bit stale. Then I have a dream the other night that he was falling out of love with me.
I don't know if the dreams are just my worries and it's all in my head or if it's real. Maybe it is real...I'm chasing after something/someone I can never have (we live in different countries after all).
A part of me feels that I should just go with it and enjoy our friendship and continue loving him as a friend until it's over..Another part of me wants to end it very soon because I am falling for him and I don't want to get hurt.
I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm crazy for liking him and I feel like I'm crazy because I am taking these dreams as signs.
I wish I could go back to the days when I didn't question our friendship. I hate that I'm over-analyzing everything.
I feel like such a mess. I'm lost and so confused.
By the way, I'm not entirely sure if this belongs in this category..I apologize if it doesn't.