dannyboy65
Well-known member
My life was turning around, I've been drug and alcohol free for a year. I got top marks. I have a job, and once friends. I can never be happy I try and I try I just can't. These voices in my head bring me down everyday, I try so hard to not listen but they take control. I'm full of anger, depression and anxiety. Everyday I fake a smile and try to make others as happy as possible when really I'm dying on the inside. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't think. When I do get sleep its only for an hour or two, when I eat its only a few bites. I've always been this way inside for years and years. I'm tired of this, I want to escape. I want to disappear, I don't want to work anymore, I don't want to continue living in a lie to make myself feel better. I got to face the cold hard truth, no matter what happens in my life I will never be truly happy. I want to end it all, I don't want to be remembered, because inside I'm not the person I show everyone. Inside I'm dark, confused, full of rage. One day I will finally break and I feel it creeping closer everyday. I don't want help or sympathy, I'm sick of help and sympathy. I had help for years and I still feel this way there is no way to help me. This is my curse...