Hi,
I've been living here in the UK for a few months now and well its sort of hard for me to get around, socially. I came here to study in a university, most of my course mates are not as friendly as I thought they would. So every time I spend my break time I usually go in the library minding my own business and browsing cracked, and I'm always alone. Every. Single. Time. Even when I'm in my own homeland, I still feel a bit lonely, I thought to myself that I'm used to this sort of situation, but every time I think I'm going to get a bit crazy. I sometimes hang out with couple of people, but they're usually far away and I rarely see them, its hard really. I kind of wanted to meet new people ever since I arrive here but its a bit of a challenge really. I really want someone to talk to, whom I can chat with, most of the time I'm in my room playing on the laptop I sort of get a little def up after 12 hours of gaming, because I feel like I want to give up. Maybe it does have something to do with my physical appearance.
I forgot to mention that I'm Asian guy, I'm pretty short, and sometimes I feel embarrassed about having to see girls who are taller than me, because where I live they're about the same height or shorter. Let alone being vertically challenged, and very height conscious. I don't know if I can handle it, I'm not that strong or have the capacity to deal with it. Furthermore, I have this girl that I really like, but its hard for me to try ask her if she wants to hang out, every time I try to ask her she tends to have an excuse that shes busy having her friends over. I guess that's just a polite way to reject me. I guess I'm fine with it, I can handle rejection, but in the end I sometimes sob in bed listening to music. I'm a university student, but a part of me is still being premature, I don't really know how to explain it. I tried as hard as I can to be confident, but I usually ended up as a social outcast. I really miss my friends back in high school, but they live so far away, its that group where I feel so comfortable with. I just can't think of anything I should do. I try to ask some people to hang out with but every time its a bad timing, like they have something else to do, and after that I feel envious when people sometimes have a group picture of them having fun, while I'm in my room spending time just playing games. At times when I can't sleep, I usually go out on the streets to long board along the deserted road because I've no one to talk to and I guess this made me feel a bit better after just cramming myself in a room. I sort of wish there would be someone to talk to. I tried some social sites, but to no avail I still have no luck doing so, its kind of hard really considering people around tend to judge on looks, and I'm not that good-looking myself so I guess its just not my life then. I know some people have it worst, I'm aware of that, I've read peoples stories but I just need some help. I don't know if I can cope with this university life, when I'm away from my family and living out here.
I've been living here in the UK for a few months now and well its sort of hard for me to get around, socially. I came here to study in a university, most of my course mates are not as friendly as I thought they would. So every time I spend my break time I usually go in the library minding my own business and browsing cracked, and I'm always alone. Every. Single. Time. Even when I'm in my own homeland, I still feel a bit lonely, I thought to myself that I'm used to this sort of situation, but every time I think I'm going to get a bit crazy. I sometimes hang out with couple of people, but they're usually far away and I rarely see them, its hard really. I kind of wanted to meet new people ever since I arrive here but its a bit of a challenge really. I really want someone to talk to, whom I can chat with, most of the time I'm in my room playing on the laptop I sort of get a little def up after 12 hours of gaming, because I feel like I want to give up. Maybe it does have something to do with my physical appearance.
I forgot to mention that I'm Asian guy, I'm pretty short, and sometimes I feel embarrassed about having to see girls who are taller than me, because where I live they're about the same height or shorter. Let alone being vertically challenged, and very height conscious. I don't know if I can handle it, I'm not that strong or have the capacity to deal with it. Furthermore, I have this girl that I really like, but its hard for me to try ask her if she wants to hang out, every time I try to ask her she tends to have an excuse that shes busy having her friends over. I guess that's just a polite way to reject me. I guess I'm fine with it, I can handle rejection, but in the end I sometimes sob in bed listening to music. I'm a university student, but a part of me is still being premature, I don't really know how to explain it. I tried as hard as I can to be confident, but I usually ended up as a social outcast. I really miss my friends back in high school, but they live so far away, its that group where I feel so comfortable with. I just can't think of anything I should do. I try to ask some people to hang out with but every time its a bad timing, like they have something else to do, and after that I feel envious when people sometimes have a group picture of them having fun, while I'm in my room spending time just playing games. At times when I can't sleep, I usually go out on the streets to long board along the deserted road because I've no one to talk to and I guess this made me feel a bit better after just cramming myself in a room. I sort of wish there would be someone to talk to. I tried some social sites, but to no avail I still have no luck doing so, its kind of hard really considering people around tend to judge on looks, and I'm not that good-looking myself so I guess its just not my life then. I know some people have it worst, I'm aware of that, I've read peoples stories but I just need some help. I don't know if I can cope with this university life, when I'm away from my family and living out here.