My big family were deeply happy, outgoing, prosperous, wealthy, LOL every second, every minute, every day, week, month and year in total of their lives.
I've never met my grandparents - all dead. My aunts & uncles and parents were 50 when I was born, and I only have only three seniors still alive. I've never really got on with my six nieces or cousins, and many of them are married with kids, all very happy; it seemed to be in our DNA. I was out of time - a universe with something against me. I didn't get on, growing up an only child with old parents
I can't blame anyone for my problems. Some head damage might have occurred at early age, and an autoimmune problem.
I behaved a bit differently, without adhering to the family style.