Apersonalan
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Sometimes because I don't have a relationship and I'm always lonely all the time I think to myself wouldn't it be easier if I was just gay and my friend was gay? I mean I wouldn't have to introduce myself because we already know each other and we know each others personalities real well too.
In 1997 I was massaging his back and he took off his shirt when he slept over, wasn't sexual it was just cause he massaged mine and I was a real ocd pleaser then. I could see how pale his skin was to the point where I could see his blue veins and I think back to myself am I aroused by this?
My friend also once had blonde yellow hair and glasses (the truth, believe it or not) and I think to myself what if I could go back in time to those moments I see in his photos and we could be together and I wouldn't be too late or unlucky finally.
Sometimes I think all those moments we had together were just sexual and I'm in denial lol... wtf??
I don't think it was sexual but now I think it's true love.
Ocd is ruining my only friend ::
In 1997 I was massaging his back and he took off his shirt when he slept over, wasn't sexual it was just cause he massaged mine and I was a real ocd pleaser then. I could see how pale his skin was to the point where I could see his blue veins and I think back to myself am I aroused by this?
My friend also once had blonde yellow hair and glasses (the truth, believe it or not) and I think to myself what if I could go back in time to those moments I see in his photos and we could be together and I wouldn't be too late or unlucky finally.
Sometimes I think all those moments we had together were just sexual and I'm in denial lol... wtf??
I don't think it was sexual but now I think it's true love.
Ocd is ruining my only friend ::