Lamb
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I know the logical answer. Step out of my comfort zone, make a collected effort to keep in contact and hang out. But these actions feel like things I will have to relearn and force myself to do. How hard is it to text someone right? People ask me that alot. My answer is, incredibly hard for me most of the time.
I don't want to intentionally appear like I don't care about people but that's what happens when I don't make a collected effort to check in on them. And it isn't that I don't care. I know that if I don't take those common actions these friendships will disintegrate. I do it anyway. Yet I want friendships? Makes no sense to me.
Eventually, that feeling of wanting social contact does wane, which I know is something alot of people can't tolerate and call a friendship at the same time. I'm sure alot of people consider me a flaky person. I don't know if it's become a part of my personality now.
There's one friend of mine who understands how I am. We can go months without talking and then pick back up as if I had spoken to her yesterday. I want friends, and feel like I'll have to make a collected effort to gain some more again. Also, the older I get the harder it becomes.
Spring/Summer are coming up- two seasons I dread. I think it's a sort of seasonal affective disorder where I become irritable and depressed.
Maybe I just haven't clicked with the right type of people? what the heck is my problem. lol :idontknow:
If anyone here is learning to manage friendships, feel free to share. For those that aren't why do you think you struggle with them?
I don't want to intentionally appear like I don't care about people but that's what happens when I don't make a collected effort to check in on them. And it isn't that I don't care. I know that if I don't take those common actions these friendships will disintegrate. I do it anyway. Yet I want friendships? Makes no sense to me.
Eventually, that feeling of wanting social contact does wane, which I know is something alot of people can't tolerate and call a friendship at the same time. I'm sure alot of people consider me a flaky person. I don't know if it's become a part of my personality now.
There's one friend of mine who understands how I am. We can go months without talking and then pick back up as if I had spoken to her yesterday. I want friends, and feel like I'll have to make a collected effort to gain some more again. Also, the older I get the harder it becomes.
Spring/Summer are coming up- two seasons I dread. I think it's a sort of seasonal affective disorder where I become irritable and depressed.
Maybe I just haven't clicked with the right type of people? what the heck is my problem. lol :idontknow:
If anyone here is learning to manage friendships, feel free to share. For those that aren't why do you think you struggle with them?